Through the eyes of this Ghost..

Woke this morning(0730) thinkin its evening(1930).
I freak out cos i slept at 2030 last night.
Then i went to bath and all.
I proceed to write a letter to my "boss" and print it out.
Moments later i realized that how come its(the sun) getting brighter instead of dark.
Thought of the end of the world is coming.
Finally it struck me that its morning.
Oh the horror and relief.
Hey call it morning confusion ok?
Dun laugh..i SAID dun laugh!!
*Aim*FIRE!!*Boom!!*

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Its interesting how sometimes people forget that i'm there.
With me watching them.
Probably tats y i'll never stop using the "ghost".
The reason for me to use the nick ghost.
Changes over the time.
At 1st,it was that i wanted disappear like a ghost.
Which i do sometime when i'm around ppl.
They say that i disappeared and appeared behind their backs.
Also,it was a time where i felt so alone and left out.
It was like i'm invisible.
Now sometimes ppl still ignore me,so i continue to use my "ghostly" exploits.
I enjoy watching ppl.Most of the time they dun realise it.
On why i enjoy watchin ppl?
Because i enjoy "reading" them.
No,i'm not a mind reader!
The real meaning is tat i read their movements,habits,things they do etc etc..
In fact everythin tat they do has a meaning.
You can do little to hide who u really are.
Unless u r aware of this u'll try to "disguise" urself as much as possible.
But sometime i can see this as well.
Also its not always i can read ppl.
Its usually ppl with certain vurnerabilties tat i read.
Ppl who have really overcame their vurnerabilties is harder to read.
It is only myself tat i can't read.
Although i know myself but its only really i see myself through other ppl.
I do know ppl who try to stay away from me.
I can only reason that they can't "read" me or merely i'm misunderstood.
Sometimes i do know of ppl who din like me for no reason or no proper reason.
Its interest isn't it when some1 dislike u for unknown reasons.
That all for now.
Ciau.

A partially Sad day..

Yeah its somehow a sad day for me today..
Coz all the student nurses went back today.
They were all nice ppl to talk,learn and joke around.
Shared stuff here and there.
Yeah all of us got a real friendship working there.
If anybody is havin a jagged thought,shame on you.
So,there was a obvious sense of loss when they left.
But,no point losing your feelings.
Only a brief goodbye is all i get and give.
In my book havin friends is as important as life itself.
Fortunately i got their hp numbers.
So wat i'm gonna do now is to send a sms to each of them.
Each one different but connected.

So here goes,
1)
[Time's so short]
Our encounter was brief,
Even shorter is our goodbyes,
But no point fretting,
Over thing we can't change,
Little did i know,
How valuable it is,
Our time together,
There's truth u'll never realise,
Until it's gone,
Love may come & go,
but friends last forever.

2)
[Us & U]
You're students,
Yet friends & teachers,
Helping us & teaching us,
Through & through,
None has deeper meaning than this,
That you're there for us,
And Us for you,
Leave is painfull,
But it's only true that,
Life is meant to move on,
So live on,
In case we meet again.

3)
[Our's]
Are patients,
Our gifts or curse?
But it's true then,
We gain certain purpose,
Sometimes thanking them,
is not enough,
But loving them,
is more than enough,
So do Ur best,
in Ur current purpose,
So tat,u'll remember,
& Neva Regret,U hav a purpose.

4)
To never ever,
let a good scolding go to waste,
Tats my style,
To keep a smile,
No matter what,
Its my way.
To care 4 1 another,
Is wat i do,
To "bully" is to show,
me doin just tat.
This is all in all,
my gift to you.

5)
Congrats!!A Free gift 4 U!!
Claim Ur free SMS from XX,XX,XX and XX.
With Extras of Address:XX,
Email/Msn:XX.
XX remember to send me those photos!!

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It's pretty weird tat i suddenly wanted to go to youth fellowship today.
Turns out to be a pretty right time for me to go.
For one da Youth leader Sam wanted to hav a youth commitee meeting tonite.
I'm suppose to be invited but he din wan to call me coz he din know wat time i'm workin.
So there i am.
Then at the youth commitee meeting which is in us pizza!!
I had a nice dinner.
Which turns out i was pretty damn right to be there cos Sam wanted to discuss bout the family games which i'm in charge of.
I've remembered to bring along the games copies too!!
"Talk bout God leading..."
Cool rite.
Is this from God tat he wanted me to go to youth today?
.....
I better pray somemore.
OK Ciau..
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10 feet under...

If i'm gonna be buried i rather my grave to be 10 feet under.
No particular reasons.Its just tat i like a all rounded number.
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Ah!! Gomen X2!!
Been rather tired lately since i've started working shift in the ward.
*Harh*
But i'm lovin it.If i'm doin anythin,i wanted to always do my best.
Although,i dun think its always seem to other ppl.heh.
Ppl are entitled to their own opinions though.
But still i'm hangin on..To do my best..
Until the time comes to let go..
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You see,all my previous crushes are ppl tat i've known n met personally.
But recently,i've seen this particular girl.
Since then i can't seem to get her off my idle mind.
Everytime i go to that particular place i was just hoping all my best tat i'll c her.
Is it just me or did i see her lookin at me then.
Still up for speculations.
If i hav a name for this i'll call it "Mystery Girl Syndrome"
It's like the situations where main characters gets intruiged by some mystery person.
Or maybe i'm watching too many movies.hah.
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Oh i'm missing last week's event.(11/4/06)
Well i join the College Cell's team in a Captain Ball tournament.
It was at MBS started at 8.30am.
Some talk,P&W, and warm-up.Then we're through!
Then we lost..
hahaha.
Was it we lost by 4:5?
can't seem to remember but i know we have a difference by 1 point.
But we lost due to "weird" refereing.
Rammin the catcher(or captain),rammin the players,runnin by the other team.
If it were me refereing i'll award several penalty shoots already.
*harh*
So we lost.And i went on as a spare player for the staff team.(Staff team won)
Be a referee for the staff team's match.(staff team lost)
Then finally a final spare player for the USM team.(which became the tournament champs)
Got a prize.Some snoopy mug with a cover.Not something for a guy like me.
At the end of the match some photo shoots here and there.
Me,ended up with a bad aching on my back and underthighs,and some sunburn.
haha..
All this for a mug.heh.
OK. its a nice mug.
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Nitez!

That Unsinkable Feeling...

I was looking accross,
Just can't figure out why,
My gaze ever shifting to that place,
Just why is it?
I can't block out this feeling,
Just like an unsinkable ship,
Now i'm just wishing it never came true,
Just because I found you,
You rised back up from the depths,
Just what is a ship?
That is just never able to sail,
Just floating there idling,
With nowhere to go,
Sometime's it's best it never came true.
"That..."

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Not so latest news.Heh.
Recently i've started working in GlenEagles Penang since March 15.
Quite an experience it seems coz i'm doin a nurse's probation before being sent for a training. Hmm..
I do meet a lot of ppl though.
I started in the Accidents and Emergency Dept.A&E or Casualty for short.
If you're looking for me to tell bout all the cases there, well u r out of luck.
Coz i'm not allowed to tell bout da patients there.
Anyways i'm gonna start working in another ward tomorow.
Aparently its a lot more tough than the place i was in.
Don't be supprised,coz A&E in a private hospital is quite free.
Sometimes there's lot of cases or none at all..
Heh..
Went behind the hospital for lunch usually.
Tried the Curry Mee,Chicken Rice, & Wan Tan Mee.
I rather take the curry mee & chicken rice any day..
There's also a nice cafe in Gleneagles too called "Harveys".
Smell of nice food always come from there.
Tried a cake last fri.Its Choc Mint Cake.
You gotta heat it up a little(20 secs?) before eating.
So the cake is a little moist & soft.
Got it with a nice choc & mint taste.
Still something's mising.
In the end ordered a Mocha.
Goes well with the cake.Of cause all things nice comes with a price.
Cake=5,Mocha=6.Not cheap heh?Once a month is an ok thing i think.

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As you can see some wierd things happen.
Just as i've forgoten my last crush come another one tat caught my mind.
Get this i dun even know who she is!
Argh but still this din stop me from "sensin" her each time she's close..
Self-dianostic:He's crazy already.

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How would it be like..,
To experience death?
That happen to someone close,
Enough to make you cry,
To break your heart,
Wishing is was you instead,
Why is it must be him?
To go before his time,
Not being able to fullfill dreams,
Of his own and of others,
No reasons make sense enough,
To cure this hurt in the heart,
Then again,
Who are we to question God's will,
Who choose to take him back,
At that time and then,
If there's a meaning in every birth,
Then there's a meaning in every death,
There is no loss in a death of a godly man,
Finally that's when you pray,
God bless his soul,
And others after.

#:A dedication to certain close friend's friend's deaths.

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Good nite.