Was talking to a friend exactly a week ago..
About how come she's still single.
Even though,she's one gal tat would have guys lining anytime.
(If you're interested, go find out yourself)
Her answer was simple,the right guy wasn't there yet.
Yea,she being a gal of ACTS Church I kinda expected more.
(Expressed my disappointment then)
(Which i shouldn't have done,Cause...)
She then asked me if there's someone i liked.
Before I even open my big mouth,
my really good best friend(who was driving) said yes.
The question evolved to who is it?(more hints from my driver)
Man,I really felt like killing her there n then,then kill myself.
But the issue remains,I've to answered tat question.
Never tot I'd have tat problem from Jim Carrey in "Liar Liar".
After a long struggling,panting,thinking and trying to escape.
I lost.
I told the whole story which I normally wouldn't to anyone else.
My so called Love Struggles. Disappointment.Dilemma.Embarrassment.
Powerlessness.Seeking Help.Rehabilitation.Depression.New Hope.
Wats the whole story?Ask me.
It did get me thinking.
Why i was in tat kind of situation tat i set myself up. (Or Somebody else)
Why was i hurtin to love someone n be loved back.
Why my so called perfect plan came undone because of feelins i tot controlled.
Why I felt so stupid every time i see her.
Why did God put tat in me.
Why now i feel better after leavin all that.
It was not easy goin through all that.
Thx to Dave Yeow,who helped me at the peak of my confusion.
Kinda depressed for 2 weeks or more.
But it did teach a thing or two.
God finally revealed(again)am i able to put my faith in Him again.
To trust Him in bringin the right girl at the right time.
Not to be pressured by my surroundings.
To take encouragement of people who are still doing the right thing.
Not to hurt yourself and people tat you love.
It wasn't easy.But i got through it.
Thank God for people like Dave whom i'm able to confide,
cause he's a leader and a guy in a relationship.
Thank God for leading me in this.
Labels: encouragement, love, struggle
