Ghost Chapters : K3n²Y C

Recently..(Finally!!)

2010-06-04T01:04:00.006+08:00

Came back from celebrating Jason Ding's birthday over dinner at Chilies.
Been told its a dinner among huddle-mates and therefore it's like a "guys only" dinner. LOL.
The only difference from a normal guy's dinner is that all of us call Jason mentor.
Not verbally of cause.
It's different. Talking with them having dinner with them isn't like other guys i've dinner with.
Maturity and respect are some of the feelings i get.
Above that, it's like we all shared something common other than just a mentor.
But just a feeling that's all.Nothing else.
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What happen today made me thought about this article "You Are Who Your Friends Are" by Donald Miller.
It talks about simply this,"You become like the people you hang out with the most".
This remind me again of Robert Kiyosaki's theory of your income is the same as your top ten friends.
Looking at this two theories.
I came to an understanding that all of this has to do with values and principles.
Sometimes its a conscious, sometimes its just go-with-the flow thing.
But its a choice. The longer you are with someone, the more likely it is that you'll adopt the person's values and principles.
Your closest circle of friends becomes you.
Sometimes we do not want to admit it but its true. Peer pressure effects us.
I don't we've a choice in whether peer pressure effects us or not.
But I do think that we have a choice in choosing who our closest friends are.
A choice in choosing who'll be having an influence in our lives.

In writing this, has also put me in a place where I've to make a choice in my life today onwards.
I've to choose do what the people I want to be like do.
I've to choose not to do what people i don't want to be like do.
Its not a matter of doing what is right or wrong.
Its a matter of taking in values that I want in my life.
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Now a review of Chilies at Empire Gallery.
New place good food.
As expected of a Chillies branch, the food will always make you full irregardless of how it looks.
Looks can be deceiving.LOL.
I had quesadillas. A lesson that I learnt is that its best eaten shared. just like the fajitas.LOL.
But it is good. But even better is the fellowship.
Cake presentation time some of the crews came out to sing a birthday song to Jason Ding.
Good Service + Good Filling Food.
2 Thumbs Up!!
Nites!!

IT IS TIME, For The Future.

2009-11-11T04:33:00.000+08:00

IT IS TIME. Clarification: This is not an emo post but for da sake of
future generations.I'm 25 years of age.I'm not proud of it but i've been in CF since 2002.I've seen the rise and the fall if the various CFs that I've
served in.And I tot I've seen everything.I'm wrong.Ppl r not perfect.When you fix a prob,new probs occur.Solutions r not perfect.Only God is perfect.Probably tats y we're in this together.

IT IS TIME FOR THE FUTURE> Hard Question,U r a senior n da Comm.s is
your junior. They made a decision which u do not like. U confront them,
they still stick to their decision. Be proud that U have done your part
4 it is Ur right. But b humbled that they r still your leaders
irregardless of their flaws.CF is NOT a political party nor it is a
club vying for recognition. It is however,a "Fellowship".

IT IS TIME FOR THE FUTURE>Hard Question#2,Da CF u're in is NOT da CF U
r expecting. Nor it is tat anyone is perfect.Boykotting or Shoutin-Out-2-Da-World doesn't really prove anything except for your character.Nor
is sabotaging or poison letters will ever change it into the ideal CF-In-Sky.
We da People will either make it or break it.

IT IS TIME FOR THE FUTURE>Words is like honey unto the lips or sword
through da heart. Take wisdom in evry word tat U say.Watever tat is
true,noble,right,pure,lovely,admirable,excellent or praiseworthy, let
tat come out from Ur mouth.Evry positive word builds, while evry
negative word destroys.Dear ppl, it is time to tink bout wat u say.Once
sent it cannot be unsent.Damage done. Send Ur encouragements not
condemnations.

IT'S TIME 4 THE FUTURE>Dear frens, Clarification: Da CF is not in
trouble.But it is 4 da past, future and present.It is not 4 da past to
judge but it is da present's right to make decisions.4 we r doin this 4
da future.I do not claim to b right in all tat i say.But this is wat
i've learn from experience.If i am wrong,share wit me and i'll take all
of it ALL down.I'm accountable for my own actions as I'm responsible to do my part for CF.

IT'S TIME 4 D FUTURE>Dear frens, i'm sorry if I've intruded into Ur space wit somethin tat probably does not concern U.But if U can do somethin 4 da CF near you,y not.If there's a CF in your school,college or Uni;Y not join them,support them n make a diffrence.Church is still more important but you're not juz passing b...y,every1 has a reason to be where they are.Alumnis r not forgotten,ur advise at da right time is still very much needed.We're grateful 4 Ur support.Come over the discussion board at http://www.facebook.com/board.php?status=256&uid=286067535365 to give us ur valuable feedback.Thx for ur time.

3 more days to go.

2008-12-29T04:34:00.008+08:00

It's coming to the end of the year.
So here it is the long awaited post.
But a word of caution, it might be long.
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The Big Show @ ACTS Church was a success.
No.That's an understatement.
On the 1st two runs(10am & 5pm). Both times it was pack!
3rd run, Christmas day,10am. It was overly packed.
As in people had to stand la.Serious!!
Glad that Karen,1 Wei and Sis made it.
Now aren't you glad that I invited you.

We had roughly 140 salvation responses.
Attendance? 1500+ on all 3 shows!!
Which is cool, great and awesome.
But since it's God.There are just no words to describe it.

If you aren't there, you just miss out a whole lot.
Wait for the DVD.It could be better.
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If I could name some of my passions, it would be CF, Media, Acting, Dance, Teens and Leadership.
I never thought I'd take leadership as a passion.
In fact, I used to shun leadership.It is something to be avoided and feared.
I'd rather be a follower and I'm damn good at that.Heh.
But my character doesn't allow that.
I strive to make changes, a voice to be heard and to be the initiative.
Ever since I came to TARC KL. There were hints of leadership around.
I made some choices.Most were taken or push away.
When I made president for the ELS. Felt like the whole world was on my shoulders.
When I became a GIG Media head. I am on a mission to take it to the next level.
When I became the Chief Editor for the CF Ed. Board. It's a whole new world.
Leadership is a solemn responsibility.
Naturally there are times when I did not get the leadership position I wanted.
I did feel hurt or sad.But these are the times when God show me what His plans are.
I'm in His peace. No matter how qualified I think I am for a position. It is God that decides.
I realize this.There was this position that I wanted really bad.
God revealed I didn't have the heart.
So it's especially important when one is in leadership, to be accountable to a more mature Christian.Usually you'll find one in your church.
Anything can go wrong when you're in leadership.
If you're don't have one yet.You have something to be worried about.
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Here's a check list of things I wished I got for Christmas.
1)A lot of important hardware for the PC.
2)Some cool gadgets.
3)More time with some important friends.
4)Someone I could pour out all my feelings to.
5)Someone to realize how much an ass he is and start behaving.
You're not making any easier for us to love you.
6)To have gifts for everyone I love and appreciated.
7)That someone to know what I'm thinking.
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If you finally got this far, congratulations.
You get to find out the exclusive news that I got Rob/Mug.
After reading this,please spare me from your questioning and spreading the news around.I appreciate people NOT coming to me and asking me how did I got mug.
It is definitely not a pleasant experience.
Here are the details.

18/12/08
Roughly close to 12am.
On the walkway along the Wangsa Maju LRT tracks.Beside a kindergarten.
That particular area is quite dark.
I got mug by 3 Malay Teens(probably aged below 15)
One of them got a kitchen knife.
2 of them held both my arms while a 3rd came and took my HP.
One of the 2 took my wallet.
They speeded off with their bike below the walkway.

So if you need to call don't worry.
My number is still the same.
Just call me and I'll save your number.
But please wait till Wed this week.

I'm alright if you're asking.
Pissed but alright.
If anyone asked, just direct them to this blog.Thx!!

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Hey to all my dear friends and family.
A Merry Belated Christmas and Happy New Year!!
Wishing all the best Blessings in Life.
That God'll be with you in whatever you do.
Thanks for being there for me.

Another Tiring Day Ended

2008-12-12T03:43:00.005+08:00

Another year.(2008)
Another Christmas Night.(Second Chance)
Another hectic 24 hours.(last minute jobs)
Another good time celebrating.(sort of)
Another time to serve.(in different area)
Another experience.(God showing Himself again)
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If you're there go pat yourself on the back.
It's great that you being there.
Either as a friend or audience or serving or just there for the free food.
On behalf of the CF, We seriously appreciate your presence there.
We hope you have a good time and graciously forgive me for the projector and sound technical errors.We do try our best to give you the best experience.
But I suppose we've no excuse if we did prepare earlier.haha.
In the end it did turn out well right?
<->
But not really for me,I think.
3 major screw-ups.Unintended but still bad.
Bottoms-up:-
3)I forgot the lyrics for one of the P&W songs.(Sorry Jon)
2)The ending video is too big for Easyworship to handle.Loaded up to only 80%.
1!)I did not take the Lifehouse - Everything mp3 with me for the mime.

Looks like it got from bad to worst!!
Sheesh...Looks like Murphy's Law was right.
"Anything that can go wrong,Will go wrong"
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Come to think of it.
It is in our weakest moment that God is made known to us.
It reveals to us, yeah, we do need God.
In all our strength and in all our efforts.
We can't help it but fail when the time comes.
It is in His Grace that he pick us back up again.
In all our weakness,dirt,burdens,worries,fears and more.
Maybe just maybe.Second Chance does not mean only for non-Christians.
Maybe God's teaching us something.
To rely on Him more instead of our own strengths.
To cry out to Him on the first sign of our testings.

And not to,
Cry about our own stupidiy.Give an Emo face.Blaming Others.To curse n swear.And more.
(Not pointing to anyone juz an example cool?)

For the first time.After an event like this.I don't feel empty no more.
I feel refilled.For God has shown me again, what it means to serve Him.
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Forgive me for another long post.
For God is so good that it needs to be shared.
Thanks for reading.

Ps:If you were there.look out for the vid if you did not catch it the first time.

Wordle from the past..

2008-11-04T01:28:00.005+08:00

Found somethin interestin from a fellow blogger.
Only those who consistently read this blog will notice some stuff.
Cause its a cool compilation of words from my previous posts!
U know wat? its all in my fav colours too!!
Dunno how they do tat.So sool.Heh.
Sorry being such kid at da moment.Try it..

It Caught Me Off-guard...

2008-11-02T04:25:00.008+08:00

Was talking to a friend exactly a week ago..
About how come she's still single.
Even though,she's one gal tat would have guys lining anytime.
(If you're interested, go find out yourself)
Her answer was simple,the right guy wasn't there yet.
Yea,she being a gal of ACTS Church I kinda expected more.
(Expressed my disappointment then)
(Which i shouldn't have done,Cause...)

She then asked me if there's someone i liked.
Before I even open my big mouth,
my really good best friend(who was driving) said yes.
The question evolved to who is it?(more hints from my driver)
Man,I really felt like killing her there n then,then kill myself.
But the issue remains,I've to answered tat question.
Never tot I'd have tat problem from Jim Carrey in "Liar Liar".
After a long struggling,panting,thinking and trying to escape.
I lost.
I told the whole story which I normally wouldn't to anyone else.
My so called Love Struggles. Disappointment.Dilemma.Embarrassment.
Powerlessness.Seeking Help.Rehabilitation.Depression.New Hope.
Wats the whole story?Ask me.

It did get me thinking.
Why i was in tat kind of situation tat i set myself up. (Or Somebody else)
Why was i hurtin to love someone n be loved back.
Why my so called perfect plan came undone because of feelins i tot controlled.
Why I felt so stupid every time i see her.
Why did God put tat in me.
Why now i feel better after leavin all that.

It was not easy goin through all that.
Thx to Dave Yeow,who helped me at the peak of my confusion.
Kinda depressed for 2 weeks or more.
But it did teach a thing or two.

God finally revealed(again)am i able to put my faith in Him again.
To trust Him in bringin the right girl at the right time.
Not to be pressured by my surroundings.
To take encouragement of people who are still doing the right thing.
Not to hurt yourself and people tat you love.

It wasn't easy.But i got through it.
Thank God for people like Dave whom i'm able to confide,
cause he's a leader and a guy in a relationship.
Thank God for leading me in this.

Here's a Song For the Future..

2008-09-05T02:12:00.002+08:00

Corrinne May - Beautiful Seed
I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world

On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing, "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts, "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed

You can be a witness, you can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress, change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future, shout it, don't whisper
'cos dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat, tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter, she's only sixteen
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her, he wants to pay
For the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital, a Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small
"Unto us is born a Savior", she looks at her baby and cries
As she sings him a lullaby

You can be a witness, you can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress, change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future, for the tiniest whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat, tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

Every hope, every power
Lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand

Suddenly...

2008-06-20T02:40:00.006+08:00

This is a season of new things for me i think.
A new 4-port D-link modem router.( Yeah my old Aztech died out ready)
Cost me RM115 man..Not too bad also la cos its being shared by my housemates(I hope)
It's now Firefox 3!!(Yeah it's so good that it's smooth try it and believe it)
A new project to finish.(hehe, it's a under wraps script)
A new resolve.( Sorry this is as far I'll go.Only select few will know)
A new mission & vision.(Or a Renewed Calling to consider of)
New sacrifices.(Life or Love)
An Unknown but hopeful future.
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Ever since I've came back from the Teenacity Revolution Camp,
have been having this nagging feeling.
It's the feeling how much I've enjoyed serving in the Teens Ministry.
It's the feeling that it's still my calling to be in the Teens Ministry.
But I'll say hold your horses.
Serving is great but also to consider the implications of serving in the ministry.
I've been asking around.The response is great and helpful.
Now it's finally up to asking the big kahuna and getting myself a mentor in church.
No, it's not easy.
For me to own up my deep shits(*Kenny in piles of black shit*)
Opening up my insides.(*Kenny on the operation table with chest open*)
Telling people God want you to serve and feeling under prepared.
(*K3n²y going to war with only a butter knife)
I'll say"Goodness gracious me!!" what the heck am i getting myself into?
Even though it's somehow God in doing things, doesn't mean I'll plunge myself every time.
But still pray for me.Am i ready?Only God knows...
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Love is probably the only Biggest feelings psychs have problems figuring out.
Am I right?Only God Knows...
Yeah..Throughout these months.
I've not been telling bout my love issues.
No,I'm not in love again.
Rather I'm in a dilemma.
What if there's 2 or more possibilities in love.
In possibilities i mean our own seen possibilities.
In God there are no possibilities only outcomes.
For us there only choices that we make.
Sometimes when we like really meet the person that we really like.
God says dude can you wait for me?
I say" God can u just give me this girl and be done with it?"
Sometimes we'll wish we din say that.
It's probably the influence of Josh Harris's "I kiss dating goodbye" and "Boy Meets Girl".
Excellently controversial books but big on God and his values.
Those who probably only heard of it will say "Josh says dating is BAD".
I'll say "Go get the and dutifully read then tell me if Josh says dating is bad"
Truth is the is no such things as bad dating or good dating.
Only good Godly values in approaching a relationship.
When you finally understand that, you'll be blown away by the way how you approach relationships till now.
But still...the argument that will strike me down now is that "Saying is easier than Doing"
That's it happy?.But that's the truth.
I'm that dilemma now. That girl is right in front of my eyes now.
God how could this be?
Letting God work and still treat her as a fellow sister or go for it?
Before I decide, I've decided to get my life back in order 1st for GOD.
Then I'll decide.If it pass then it pass.If it's mine it'll come back.
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Now playing: Regina Spektor - The Call
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Suddenly I'm on the topic of Prince Caspian.
Yeah just remembered it.
I remembered, how disapointing it is when some people watch it without seeing the significance of Christ in the movie.Not that i remembered everything but here goes.
The way it started.
The Siblings are called back to Narnia at the time they least expected it.
Us, Jesus calls us to our calling the least we expected it.Sheesh...
Not always it is that our mission field is what we expected.
On the way back, Lucy spots Aslan while other don't.
They move on despite Aslan might be showing the way.
Only Edmund believe her only because he ended looking stupid last time.heh.
Peter asked why didn't Aslan appeared to him then?
Probably because Peter wasn't looking for Him.
Us, how often we complain of God not appearing to us when we did not even bothered to look for Christ?
Susan ask what her reason be?
Probably because she did not desire Him enough.
Us, how often do we say we wanna see God but not fully desiring Him to be in our lives.
Next, no matter how amazing the plans Peter and Caspian make.
All of it fail, due to human errors.
Us, no matter how perfect our plans are, it is never perfect.
It was only Lucy that went to find Aslan as only she can find him.
Aslan ask Lucy to do one thing for Him. Which was not revealed till the end.
He ask Lucy to stand on the bridge to stop the Telmarine's troops from retreating via the bridge.
In this, shows Aslan can use even the so called weakest people to do His will then He'll do his part.
In Aslan's kingdom He has called Caspian to be the King of the country.
As of us, we're called to be princes and princesses to God'd kingdom.
Trivia,i've heard Aslan only had a 3-minute screen time.
Us? To represent Jesus as he only did 3 years of ministry.
Taken from David Yeow.But dun think it intended.heh.
Can't remember much now since it's so long since i've watch it.
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Good night and God Bless.

I counted...Offcially 24 today.

2008-06-11T03:04:00.012+08:00

Oh dear..
It's the undeniable fact that i'm now 24 years of age...
It's also undeniable that this is also one of my most pleasant birthday ever.
It started this Sunday that 1st time my birthday was anounce in church(ACTS Church)
Got a chocolate bar.YAY.The teens finished it with me.heh.
Otherwise Kenny would go super high.

Saved the wrapper..
If your Birthday is on that Sunday week,
You'll get this ONE super ni-se choc bar.
(Secretly been waitin for this moment)

Next was 1-800-United Cell in Wangsa.
After it was all over they gave me this "kecik" cake with such a kiddish decor.
Got to eat it after they force me to drink this God-Knows-What concoction.
Did not give them the pleasure of being gaged by it.Heh.Juz drank it like gravy.

Tues,today.Woke up today with lots of b'day wishes and even more later throughout the day.
After rushing the media set-up for CF,then rushing to Tasik Selatan to meet-up with Sis.
Rushed to Subang to get Mum to our long awaited dinner at "The Apartment" at "The Curve". Then stoping by Starbucks to get that "Dark Mocha Frapachino".

Came back to J.J,my house.
Got the final B'day greetings for the day from my fav. gals Jerusha and Wen Lin.

So i think its rather appropriate to thank these people who wished me.

24 years that I've lived,
I thank God for the wonderful friends He gave me,
Those who support me to give me strength,
Those who are there for me,
Those who remembered a very forgetful me,
Those who bothered to challenge me,
Those I din even bothered with,
Those who have too much time on their hands,
Wishing me through the wonders of technology,
Those who really invest their life in my life,
There are no better friends than this when they spend even a minute for you.
Telling people you are there if you ever need me,
Telling people that you are not alone,
That's what friends are for,
Thanks...

Immediate people to Thank.
Sis, Mum, & Sis's bf.

People who wished me personally.
Housemates-Hao Han, Jia Pei, Andy
CFers-Jerusha, Wen Lin
1-800 United- Vincent, Nick, Kenny, Fay, Mei Fong, Joshua
Sorry if i've left out any.

SMS greetings
Helen Koh-From ELS & CF
Andy-Housemate
Lin Wai Yi- 1-800-United Cell
Lin Meiyi-The ever talented gal from ELS
Kar Mun-CFer

Facebook
"Message"
Su Chee- A Cool Gal from ACTS
"The Wall"
Ps Andy Yeoh- Teens Pastor & Lead of A.F.
Caroline Lam- From ACTS & Lightbulb
Jason Ding- Bangsar H@mes Leader & Lead of Unabashed
Lyndsey- from back home in BOG Church Pg.

Friendster
Eu Seng- Good Buds back in Secondary.
Steven Tang- Back in TARC PG

Thanks Alot!!

Diploma In Counselling....Its over!!

2008-05-14T01:42:00.007+08:00

Yeah, I've now offcially finished my Diploma in Counselling..provided I pass all my subjects. *Shivers*

You know, I now see a pattern now. I update my blog every time I'm back in Penang for holidays.
Usually its after 12am. Or more like after 2am.I'm a nocturnal blue moon blogger.heh.
Maybe i can call myself the blue moon blogger next time.*lame*

Yea people are going off now.I mean after this.After this few weeks or so.
When they have decided on their course of action or studies.
Some work.Some will laze around.Some go off to HELP.
Some go to UTAR.Some Stay back.Some disappear.
Me?I'm staying back.
Why?I've my reasons.
What?You'll find out soon enough if you read closely..or not.
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And now the missing parts of K's life in Sem.3
Heh..I finally moved of out of that room of mine into a "real house".
J.J house to be exact. Or rather Jehovah Jireh House. Yeah it's a Christian house.
Moved in on the eve of March.2 days 3 parts or 4 parts.
There's just so many stuff. Goodness gracious.I thought it's only a room.
Then again I've also have stuff outside my room.Only some but big enough.

It's a nice house.Rather small.Definitely more homier than previously.
Ok housemates.Comes with a bonus chick called Jiaps.
Or better not.She's nice too.
I think i've settled quite well.A lil messy but nothing i can't handle.
Oh not long ago we adopted a cat in the house.
Being the uncreative bunch we(2) are, we just call her "Miau".
She keeps rats away and a roach killer.
Now we can save cash on those pest repellents.Yay.
How did it became part of the house?
That's another story to tell.
<->

One would think since it's 3rd Sem and all it'll just be a walk in the park.
Probably the easiest Semester to pass by us...NOT!!
1.We've practicum site hours to spend on.(6 hours a week but my group got 8.5 hours)
2.Our have to do a counselling session(3 session & assessment + 1 transcript) & a site recommendation for our practicum tutorial assignments. We don't need this stress.
3.Research Methods for Psychology & Counselling is not exactly easy either.
An assignment thats needs lots of meticulous noting.
4.On Abnormal Psych. we've got Ms Aggy as lecturer n tutor.
5.I've 2 extra subs to pass this sem.
6.I need to run the AGM for ELS
7.It's a short Sem.It seriously seems that everythings happening so fast!
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And most of us probably didn't have time to think about our impending future after Diploma.
But most of us did manage to have fun while it lasted.
Thanks to Rowen, we somehow did have a final class dinner over a steamboat buffet.
A final moment to enjoy each other's presence before everything goes.
Then it was off to Titiwangsa's "Eye of Malaysia" we just took a walk and talk.
Few of us from the steamboat gang.

After the exams, somehow we just don't see each other anymore.At least for me.
Not that we've any reasons to meet.
It's just that somehow i wished I've spend more time with each of them but it's all pass now.
No point regretting the past.

Now or rather soon, I'm going into Advance Diploma in Psychology if i pass all my subs.
Can't wait to meet new classmates but not that i don't most of them already. heh.
Till next post....

I blinked And Its 2008!! Dang..

2008-02-05T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yea.. Its 2008.Last I check, my last post was in September.
Guess someone forgot to wake me up when September ended.
So I slept through October, November, December, January and February I'm ere!!
Now now my imaginary fans, I'm pretty sure there's some kind of explanation somewhere.
So i did some digging into my past.
Which was no mean feat. Information were far and vague.
So many things happened while i slept.
Here's what I've found so far.Some speculations.Some vague truths.

Oct :Beginning of the semester
Nov 4 : AYA Awards by AYA
Dec 18: Christmas Night:The Truth about Christmas by TARC CF(KL)
Dec 23,25:The Tailor Made Man by The ACTS Chruch
Jan 17-31: Finals. 6 papers including a resit paper.

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OCT- I guess I've started the 2nd year 2nd semester of Counseling in TARC KL.
Subjects are not so easy this time. Group Dynamics, Counseling Methods & Techniques 2, Industrial & Organization Psychology, Ethical & Legal Aspects of Counselling and Interpersonal Communication Skills.

The earliest assignment to start was Group Dynamics.We had to gather a group of people and give them group counseling. The problematic part was to gather them and to plan the sessions.
We're suppose to do this with a partner or go solo.My partner was my naggy god-sis, Steph.
We did pulled it off with a group of year 1 journalism students,courtesy of my ELS Jr EXCO (Amirul).
Next was I/O Psych and IPC. Solo assignments.
I/O was a cover letter and a curriculum-vitae for a real life job ad.
IPC wise, we suppose to make or pick a conversation and analyze it for solo assignment.
Group wise for IPC, a mock counseling session with a few holes here and there and analyze it.
CMT2? just a counseling session with a classmate.
Ethics? Suppose to talk about a Law act related to counseling.
All this assignments span throughout the 13 weeks of sem 2.

Oh yeah, some time around da 1st few weeks we were lookin 4 some place to do our practicum during 3rd sem. Got it. It's Spices in Wangsa Maju.WooHoo!! So we gonna work with kids this coming March.

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NOV- One of the biggest events of the year.At least for me was AYA Dream Malaysia Awards. We(ACTS TV) were anticipating it since the end of the last AYA Awards. Which was coincidently was my 1st major project. Havin experienced the last few big projects This was a blast!.
Workin with everyone. Everythin was smooth flowing.
This time I'm just cabling for Vidy(Roamin Cam). So basically tats some stress off my back.
We actually felt professional with shirts and all.For me and Vidy we're quite black.
Wish I've some photos to show but none available.
As for the awards itself, I'm proud to part of the event which included some biggies.
Such as,
Astro(Official Broadcaster)
KLPAC(Official Venue)
Supported by, Jabatan Perpaduan Negara dan Intergrasi Nasional(Jabatan Perdana Menteri)
Sponsored by, LIFE College, Swiss-Garden Golf Resort & Spa, Integricity, Digi and EMI.
Big huh?
Considerring the fact that the tickets cost $50 is fair deal.
If you paid the amount, you get to enjoy some nice pre-event appetizers.
Astro was so impressed that they wanted to work with us to do a Dream Asia Awards.
(proposal's in by Astro)Wow.
Winner's are Dr Kenny Lee and Youth Malaysia.
For more details Check Out:- http://www.ayaawards.com/
Ps:- Also check out the ad by Dr Kenny as well.

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DEC- This is the Killer Month. The month where everything comes together.
Assignment datelines.
Christmas Practices.
Christmas Events.
By the time everything finishes I'm pretty numb.
Oh jolly Christmas, the time when God seem to dump the whole world on me.
Assignments back to back each week.Practices almost everyday since mid Nov.
Assignments aside.I've 6 roles to play for Christmas Night.
1.The Merchant
2.The Innkeeper
3.The Hip Hop Angel(Dance)
4.Townperson
5. Flag wielding Soldier(Dance)
6.The Blindman
So now you'll have a rough idea of what I've went through.
The event itself is good, not excellent but enough in my expectation.
We'll do better this year.

As for The Tailor Made Man, it exceeded expectations.
It was even covered by NST. Check it out HERE.
I've ordered the dvd. I'll show u when I've time or when we meet.

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JAN'08- Crazy Exam month.Nuff said.
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Will post up pics when i find it .
Ciau.

Of Bananas And Graduation

2007-09-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

Just gonna get it off my head before i forget everything.
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[Random]
Someone added my blog as a link in "her" blog.
I havin a hard time figuring out who she is.
She's from my church,a leader, lives in a rented room in subang.
I still can't figure out who she is. Great now i can't sleep until i find out who she is.
Next clue, she's called Eva by a friend i presume.
I still dunno who she is..more diggin.
Calls herself "Cheese"..Ratatoullie anyone?
Sucheese?picture of her cubicle?
And She is Su Chee!!
Now i feel like an idiot..
[This is a summary of 1 half hours of Randomess]
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~Bananas~ or Banana People(San Chiau Ren in mandarin)..
This what Mandarin Speaking Chinese(MSC) calls Non-Mandarin Speakin Chinese(NSC).
No i dun speak good conversational quality mandarin and no i refuse to admit i'm a banana.
Why? You wanna know why?
Because i understand and accept the fact that i'm Chinese.
I know my roots. My dad's family is Cantonese and my Mom's Hokkien.
And i speak both dialects.i almost celebrate all da Chinese festivals or at least hav knowledge or them.Some i don't celebrate for religious purposes.
At the same time i enjoy all kinds of food, not just Chinese.
I'm a Christian not a Buddhist.

And just because somebody called Chairman Mao Tse-Tung starts a bloody policy that states all Chinaman(woman) must speak Mandarin.
And how does that makes me a Banana?
A Chinese tat can't really speak Chinese(Mandarin).
You MSCs better think twice bout calling NSCs Bananas because i for one know how it sounds in Mandarin.

But then again,I began to reason.Its impossible that Chinese are that immature.
The term "Banana" could hav been evolved from a much deeper meanin to a very much immature meanin we hear today.
Banana could hav meant Chinese that hav lost their way, forgetin their roots, denying their identity, or in summary, Chinese striving to be White.
I based this on the knowledge in the olden times where the Europeans were in abundance in China.
The Europeans were the very epitome of style and culture when China were in good relations with some of the Europeans countries.
Of cause this all from Kenny's random theories.
Just pass this off as a joke if u find this nonsense.
My apologies but in summary if u call me banana i'll make sure to give u a bit of brainwashin.
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~Graduation..~
The highlight of a students life finishing his/her studies.
The very moment you know you're gettin a job with that paper you hav.(or not)
That feeling of pride and accomplishment.
Sometimes you'll feel that you've help achieve world peace.(ok mayb not tat)
Its something that you definitely wanna go through.
In this time and age, it's become a "Rite of Passage" for everyone.
Especially for those studying in colleges and universities.
I'm not so sure why i'm writin this but probably due to news of people graduating and i'm reminded of my "I.S.E" diploma graduation from TARC Pg last year.
To most people it's the most important moment of their life.
To some people it's something to their make their folks happy.
To few, it's an unnecessary luxury.
This probably applies to most college or uni students.
Well graduation is by means not a bad thing since it makes most people happy, your parents, you and your friends.
A dedication to Recent Graduates and Future Graduates.
A Kenny's Toast.
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The End

2 Months Lapse.

2007-09-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

Yo! i'm finally back in Penang!!
July & August was just a month of pure busyness for me..
ELS, college work & church....Ok including my gamin as well.
Still, my life is packed to the brim..
Maybe i can make few adjustments here and there.
But there's not much need other than my friends.
No special someone that i need to invest time with.
So how bout a brief through the month of July & August.
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July:-
Can't remember much...
Hmm... Another 2 months lapse...
Oh well, I somehow remember that i was quite busy all around.
Probably was quite busy with ELS in planning and running around getting things done.
As well as preparation for handing in 2 of 5 assignments.
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August:-
Heh..A month of total annihilation..
For me at least.
Trying to squeeze 3 events(ELS), coping with da rest of da 3 of 5 assignments, helping out in church and whoa!! momma where am I?
Man i think i just bomb out in Aug.
Never thought i'll be handling so many things at once.
Anyways i have hope to announce that all events planed have been a success.
As all things before greatness, there must failures and challenges.

1st event, Water War didn't take off with enough passengers so it was scraped.

2nd event, Scary Story Session could almost make it but we would have need more audiences and story tellers.But overall i'm satisfied with da effort and ideas put in.
With a highly imaginative and somewat skilled crew,it's almost the vision i had in mind for the project. Well i hope for a more success next year.Thx crew.

3rd event, Writing Workshop. My event, din really took off.But it was good.The money invested, worth every cent of it. Problem is? We aren't gettin enough ppl to join in.
Joanna Van(Studin in UTAR) and Sarah Chew(the Star) were our speakers.
And which i'm really grateful for their availability and equally available skills.
Everyone there i hope really gain much from them.
[Edit]
Finally in wrapping up for the month we had a End Semester Review or at least tats wat i remember callin it.
Separated into 3 sections, Seniors Review, Juniors Review and Events Review.
Attendance is satisfactory with 1 to 3 missing,seniors and juniors.
We hope we all had a good understanding of our weaknesses and strengths as discuss in the review.
Ended up plannin for the next semester.
Since it wasn't in da agenda for tat review i was quite please with the majority of them who stayed back to help in the plannin.
And I thank God for givin me these wonderful people to work with.
Next semester is gonna be an even better and greater semester.
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Updates for the Month of June!!

2007-07-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

Lets see where was i?
Ah yes just after the ELS society day.It was on 24 May.

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The week after that starts my course's Year 2 Sem 1.
Nothing much except another fresh start studies again.
Actually the exciting part really starts when I go back Penang on 8/6.
Why? Cause its for Daniel and Mei Wan's wedding!!
Woohoo!!!
The wedding ceremony is in the morning in church(BOG) and there's dinner later at the Evergreen Laurel Hotel.
After so long being with us in the BOG Youth, they are like brother and sister to all of us.
So i'm especially happy for them because for me when someone you know is getting married it's like a dream come true or miracle happening to their life.
"A wedding is a ceremony that celebrates the beginning of a marriage between a man and woman."says Wikipedia.
Like what i've told all of my friend when i got back.
"The bride was beautiful and the groom was handsome"
See? Aren't they the lovely couple?And you see that guy thats not suppose to be there?
That me.*sad*WHEN my turn??!!
*sob*sob*
Heh..That time will come.So i'm now gonna dedicate this post To Daniel and Mei Wan!!
Here's a few photos from around to end this time's post.

I'm back in da middle of my 2nd year 1st sem...

2007-07-12T02:05:00.000+08:00

Again 2 months has passed since i've last blogged.
I've just got my internet last month.
Basically i've been lazy to update ma blog since i've no excuse to make up for tat 1 month.
Heh..
So to make up for tat. i'll maybe start a 2 or 3 parter blog within this week and next week!!
Not tat there's much readers of this blog anyways but there's at least 1 faithful reader i'm determined not to disappoint!
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Part 1 - May.
Yea a continuation from ma last post. We finished the society day booth. Especially glad when it's finished. We got a total of 200++ members!! This had better be worth it cos i've to cut short my holiday of 1 month in Penang to only a week!! Yea yea poor me.

Lots of stuff happen since then but i'll leave you guys with this 1st cos this is the 1st part remember?
Heh..Cya!!

Finally Back With Upgrades..

2007-04-29T04:49:00.000+08:00

We're back again with "Once-in-a-while-Kenny's-Long-Post"
Haha..
It's been almost 2 months since my last post.
Quite few things had happened since then but only few worth mentioning.
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I've became the Chairman of my college's English Language Society(ELS) last week.
Surprised?
Yea me too.
Never in 10 years I'll think of myself as a Chairman of an English society.
All started cos of me intending to start a college newspaper.
Well it's yet to start so....
As for the ELS, there's lots of work to do.
Firstly notably is the society's so called Society Day booth coming this 24/05/07.
Coming soon is the college's first newspaper!!
Of cause other activities before that.
Our own ELS Orientation,a scary story telling session,a camp?, debates and so on!
Hmm..Feels like doing a advertisement now...
Well I'm sorry if its like that but i guess it's what i am now.Heh..
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Taking a Leadership position,sometimes i feel its like signing a devils contract.
(Ghost Rider anyone?)

You gotta perform now.
You've now got an axe over your neck.
You got eyes watching your every move.
You suddenly more self-aware.
You're hoping that decision you made was right.
You need the support of your people.
You sometimes feel all alone.
You wonder if there's someone who really understand you.
You're tempted to use that extra power.
You gonna do the next big thing.
You'll wonder what happened to your life?

You're now gonna make that important change.
You're being counted on to lead.
You're now the vision of your people.
You can change lives.
You realized there's something only you can do.
You know there's something you need to do.
You're now there to serve.

This is what i feel about leadership after year of experiencing leadership indirectly & directly.
To tell the truth, I'm not a leader by nature nor do I actively seek leadership.
The only time I'm really wiling to take up leadership is when i'm needed.
Not to say there's no suitable leaders but i guess God put leaders where they are needed.
I don't think all these year of leadership "trainings" are an accident.
Not all leaders are born leaders.Leaders are made.Some willing,some unwilling.
Saying this, doesn't mean only leaders need to learn about leadership but anyone who's ready to take on leadership if they're needed when the time comes.
When followers know leadership,they'll understand what the leader's going through.
They know the leader's decision rights and wrongs.
At least this'll lighten the leader load a bit.
Also that's how followers know why they need to follow a leader.
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Opps!! Did i tell you about my spanking new PC that i bought?
Its damn cool!!
Here's the specs....Next time...
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Exam's over for the 3rd semester.
I'm done for now until June but still i'm gonna busy myself in May.
Gonna meet printers(for our newspaper), other ELS leaders in other colleges and visit our local newspapers(The Star,The Sun,The Moon[joke],New Strait Times).
Was planning to join TARC's very own floorball team in this coming Penang tournament but looks like i'm a little bit slow in signing up.
Oh Well..This sucks a bit.
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I dunno why its always so late already when I finally post.
Oh well till next time.
Cya.

How to be a better man.....Hmmm....

2007-03-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

Just happen to catch the last episode to "What Women Want".Interesting stuff.
I seriously don't know women want so much in a man.Not interested.
Well i believe in a well-being of a person but to the extent of following the guidelines set out by people who how they want their partner to be?
Well no prob.I've no prob. disqualifying myself.
I'm not working for my partner, I work myself for myself.
I believe that if i ever wanna work myself its not for other people.
Dun wanna ever put myself where people are in control of my life instead of me.
[Another of Kenny's principles.]
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Wats more painful?
Not being able to love or not wanting to love?
How a bout a bit of both?
Life doesn't make it any easier doesn't it?
Feels like irony and tyranny are best friends
Can't forget it even if i want to.
While i can't remember things i needed.
You can say Irony and tyranny again.
Thought i've got over it already.
But apparently looks like i havn't.
No thanx to some non-human encouragement and stupid memories.
[Another of Kenny's random feelings]
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"Dreamgirls" a musical adapted from Broadway of the same name.
Very loosely based on Motown Records, The Supremes.
Check out full details at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dreamgirls_(film).
I've watch it without much expectations and was blown away.
Just amazing.
Its not just because there's Jamie Foxx,Beyonce Knowles,Eddie Murphy and Jennifer Hudson.
The whole thing is amazing.Cinematography,Scripts, Songs and *heh*costumes.
Its so amazing that i wanna watch it again.
Yeah i think its lived up to its name.Its "Dreamy".
[Kenny's lame review?]
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English Musical Drama was few months back and its was good.
Some hiccups here and there.But it was good.
Now its just a matter of starting a real deal drama club.Heh i can't wait.
AYA Fest. was even better.
Heh my whole body ache like hell after tat.
Why u ask?Well, I was doing stage camera for the event.
Was running around the stage.
Had da time of my life.
Time's gettin late.
C ya

Back ere,Back Home.

2007-02-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

Hey i'm back for the holidays!!
Penang!!Food!!Girls...........none.
Not tat crazy bout it.
Valentines come and gone.
Stayed at home.Din even knew it came.
Got a Valentine msg though.
no its not a "love sms"
Its an "appreciation sms"
Thx!!

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Tot bout da thing called love for while.
I think love is self-gratifying.
Don't think so?
When the last time you love someone just because u love that person?
And not expecting something back?
Never happened?Good you're normal.
Each time you love someone,
you'll wanna (consciously/unconsciously) want something back.
Think...Tat time when u ever love someone.
What happened?
U wish tat person did something.Show u a sign.
A kiss?a hug?or even sex?
Ladies and gentlemen tats love.
But..
this's one way to look at it.
Love's heartbreakin when u dun get a response.
Love's heartbreakin when u get pushed away.
Love's heartbreakin when u can't give to get.
Love's heartbreakin when u want to but can't.
Love's heartbreakin when u find out its not love.
Love's heartbreakin when u can't love no more.

Yeah,i dun hav one and i dun think i'll wanna one anytime soon.
I dun think i'll need it soon anyways.
There's da possibility tat i'll neva hav one?
Then tats fate i guess.none of my business.
I've had it been push around by love.
Feelings not da way to live by.

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Ok tat sounds like i'm desperate for love thoroughly heartbroken.
i'm not, i assure you.At least tats how i feel bout love for now.
Heh..
Those still in love...No offence to u guys.
Appreciated it while it last.
Now i'll wanna concentrate loving tat GUY up there.
Then maybe i'll find something.

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Hmm..
I guess i'll comment bout various events in my life after this.
heh.look for it.

Two weeks or less to da Musical Drama!!

2006-12-05T02:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah i'm a bit nervous but guys n gals you'll never see my nervousness.
After a particular incident, my position as Acting Coordinator has been changed to Asst. Managing Director.
I'm fine dun worry.Most remants of da incident has been cleared successfully.
I thank God for that.For using me as his tool of peace.
There's a positive side to that as well.
I dun hav to crack my head on wats wrong with da acting anymore.
Now i'm just happy doing da general work of piecing everything together.
But its none the less, hard work still.
New things has come the moment i take this post.
Maybe its God in making of another of his plans.
A whole new dimention opened-up, which is quite cool.
I'm still doing my best to make this thing work.

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I'm still working hard for a morning Quiet time.
Hopefully i'm trying my best.Pray for me.

Then and Now...(13/11/06)

2006-11-14T02:26:00.000+08:00

Its been 2 weeks since AYA Dream Malaysia Awards.
A day that has bless me totally.
First time i'm ever involved in a production such as this.
I was involved as Media Coordinator on da Videos and Media side.
In-charge of all cameras and equipments..
Teaching some of da cameramen.
Anyways in short, i make sure all stuff is coordinate properly..

We got practice in da form of Saturday and Sunday services.
Setup da equipment on Sat afternoon(12.30-2).
Everything was ready when Saturday service start.
And so we roll out everything we have during those 2 days.
Heh,its a real stress for me during those 2 days..
But i appreciate the experiance.Can never get that no where else.

Finally, on the real night itself.After getting everything in place, I finally get to chill.
Michael,Tammy,Tammy's cousin and Gadiy made it. Just in time for refreshments too.
Hang out with them a while before the event starts.Grab a few bites to fill me a bit..

And then its da night itself.
A night of awesome singing and songs.
We had One in a Million winner Suki sang for us as well as Indonesian Idol 1st runner-up Tessie.
Tessie's in my church!!
We also had a few awesome totally inspiring people with us that night.
Ps Kenneth did a mini-breakdance or poping is it?heh but it was cool.
Went home a awestruck guy.My frens had a awesome time too and i'm happy.
I'm happy for everybody..
Cool...
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Yesterday, met up with Joel.
He said my name is kept brought up in his mind.
Asking bout how's my quiet time.
Then we talk.
Its true i havn't been doing well with my quiet time.
In fact after I started serving for church in ACTS TV quiet time has been a major concern to me.
Back behind my head its there bugging me when's i'm gonna do my quiet time.
Joel agreed to be the person i'm acountable to.
Now i've a mentor!! Yay!!
Please support me to do my quiet time ok?
I'll do my best for my quiet time..
Thanks.
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Musical Drama's practice is up and runnin for 2 days now..
Last one was Friday last week and Monday today.
All is well.the cast is doing well except for a certain individual.
I hope he's here for the next practice.
Realy trying to pack all into my head all da actor's and actress's lines,positions,postures and etc.
Oh well such life of a Acting Coordinator.
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Good Night.

Love Rumors..

2006-11-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

A asked me today if i like her.
Apparently there're rumors flying around that i like her.(Like as in have feelings for..)
So what did i said?
Good thing i talk bout level of feelings of a person can have for the opposite sex.
Well i basicly told her:-
1)I've not told anyone that i like her specifically.
2)She is not my crush at the moment.(none actually)
[Crush as in i like someone to the point that i can hurt myself emotionally]
3)i'm just fond of her that all.
So basicly we agreed to stay as best friends.

As i got back, i can't stop thinking.
What did i do that got everybody talking about us?
Ok the truth is she has desirable qualities and very nice to be with.
I'm very comfortable just being with her.
If i hadn't control myself or my feelings i think i would have i've fallen for her already.
But the thing is i'm mature enough to think this through.
So basicly to put this is that i could let myself fall into crush with her but i wouldn't let it.
But its hard to do though.Sometimes i feel like to let myself fall into crush again.
But i won't do that.I refuse to hurt myself and to hurt any girl's feelings.

As the future may bring,i'll move into it finding my right girl from GOD.

God's pushing me..Can't stop the flow..

2006-10-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

When i've touchdown in KL i've thought that i'll take it slow.
Take my time.Enjoy the scenery man.
Unfortunately or fortunenately,i've found none of that.
God's moving in my life.
In ways i cannot understand but i've come to realise,that plans of his are now in motion.

Sometime ago before i came to KL, I'm was trying hard to finish my exams.
Which i've failed.A normal 2 year course i was finishing in 4.
Times seem bleak then even when i was finishing my last paper.
I've passed.
Worked in the hospital trying to pass the evalaution to become a nurse.
Didn't get it.
Then my dad asked,"What do you want to continue to study?"
God's wheel continues to roll.
The miracles keep on coming, big & small.

Now i'm here.
Churching in ACTS Church.
Serving.Though an hour away.
I'm happy.I'm glad.
All because i've made a decision and stuck with it.(Probably God has something to do with it)
Things are rolling in ways i cannot imagine then.
I'm cure of Leadership Phobia.(I Think)
I've accepted responsibilities that i'd fear taking.
God's broken me & remold me.
Something's BIG gonna happen.
I can't wait but at the same time i'm a bit scared.
I'm shivering in excitement.
I understand new things are expected of me.
I'll do my best to abide by them.
After comin this far, i don't wanna lose my blessings just yet.

Back on track in 2nd Sem.

2006-10-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

Whoa!!
Looks like its been sometime again.
Tonite i feel like blogin again.
Sorry if you one to follow this blog you've gotta bear with me here.
So lets start off on 3 weeks before.

(8/10/06-14/10/06)
A cool week to start off with.
On Sunday we're(ACTS Church) visited by Datuk Tony Tiah and Datin Alicia Tiah who donated Rm12K to the cause of ACTS TV to buy a Panasonic AG-DVX102B video camera.
That camera now is being used for weekly church service recording and also for our weekly CVA(church video anouncements) recordings.Last Monday(23/10/06) was our 1st recording for the CVAs meant for next week.

On da 9/10-12/10 is CF camp:ARMY.
Its a normal camp somewhat.
Nothing too big nor small.
I'm suppose to get a camp bunk but looks like i've ended up with a chalet bunk.
Looks like i've save my Rm 30 for a chalet.
I've enjoyed myself somewhat.
Well getting to know new people and playing pranks are enjoyments no?
Came back with bug bites that lasted for a week+.
Anyways it was a mildly enjoyable camp.
Not bad but not great either.heh.

Guess what?13/10/06
I went to Genting with Tammy,Michelle,Gadhy,Shoban and Micheal(people from EMDC)
Yeah with bug bites and all.
Met them at KL Sentral,7.30.A bit late.Anyways bus reaches at 8.30.
Reached Genting around 9.30 something i guess.
By da time we reach da gate its almost 10.30.
Summarising da whole trip,we took a whole lot of photos,Mike complained da whole time or rather demonstrating his inability to keep his mouth shut(heh), and we had a whole lot of fun!!
Me, i was enjoying their company and playing with their cameras.
We almost didn't make it to the return bus to KL Sentral.
Went home bumed out, all of us.

14/10-15/10Another awesome 2 days of service.Almost couldn't went back on Sat(14/10) after FAR OUT Worship but it was all a misinformation.LRT closes on 11.40pm on normal days(Mon-Sat)
Sundays and holidays closes on 11pm.

(16/10/06-21/10/06)
16/10,The first day of our course's 2nd Sem.
Suppose to have EMDC(English Musical Drama Committee) meeting today.Nothing.
Also 1st lecture(sociology) of the sem by Mr Philip.
17/10,EMDC had its meeting today.

18/10,Went to the 1st Go Fish! workshop.Missed the LRT(for real!!)Went around with Su Chee.
Finally Vinod sent me home.

19/10,Its paintball time again!!
The targets this time is, Rowen(he organised this),Edwin,Gabriel,Rosnea,Jason,Liang,Joanne and Siau Hui.So there's 7 guys and 2 gals.
Everyone had a fun time although we are an hour late.
Suppose to there at 7pm but we reach at 8pm .
We had a few games.I'm always in the winning team.Even after we combine with the girls team.
Well what to do if there's 2 fellows who are into army games and has played paintball before.
Night games are damn cool man!!
Especially at the urban/jungle arena.
The girls are especially sporting even when we shot at them.
I wonder how many bruises they got now.
Anyways I OWNED ALL OF THEM!!
hahaha.

20/10,Suppose to have an emergency EMDC meeting with Mr Hafiz.
Missed it.Made it up by meeting with Tammy and gang later at da EMSD office.
Went for dinner with Gadhi and Tammy later.
They reminded me that Results for last sem are out!!.
Really wanted to not to know its out.
Checked it online later............I passed!!
All this while i thought i've failed my 2nd paper(Psychology)!!

21/10,Ps Kenneth's saturday message really sets in my head.Its amazing.
Cause just only on fri i've got my results and he's talking bout God's peace in out hearts.
Yeah, even though i've got God's peace in my heart but not much of peace in my head.
heh.
I really thank God for my results.I don't really its my effort at all.
This also prompt me to send a last minute news e-mail to Sam & Lyndsey and also to bless the youths back at my home church.

(22/10/06-25/10/06)
22/10,Normal awesome church day.There was a dance workshop after church.I hope i still remember da moves.

23/10,CVA shoot today.1st time using the new video cam.
I think i kinda messed up a bit.Only a bit.Ok though if you look at it overall.

24/10,Went to Chuch for a Wedding service.Another cool event.I went on duty for multimedia.
Heh, ate my fill after that. Went home and slept from 6pm something till 4am something.Whoa!!
Then slept again at 7am.

25/10,And woke up at 2pm something.Laze in front of this PC the whole day..
And now i'm finish..Now gonna sleep.
Nitey nites!!

Ghost Chapter reseted..

2006-08-27T01:21:00.001+08:00

i've reseted my blog to its original template..
looks like i'll re do everythin again..

<->
Updates.
13/8>Went 4 paint ball!!
18/8-20/8>Went 4 Campus Camp!!
Pics here!!
22/8-26/8>Went 4 EO6 workshops!! Impact:One life,one world.

Graduation to a New Life...

2006-08-15T12:40:00.000+08:00

Its been exactly 2 weeks,
Since my time of loops ended,
Exactly 4 year I'm stuck,
Not knowing where my future leads,
I thought I was lost,
Not knowing when i'll break free,
It was like limbo then,
But none the less,
There were lessons to be learnt,
People to meet,futures to shape,
Only God knows my purpose,
Even it's a mystery to me,
So ends my duty & fate,
In TAR Penang,I'm Free,
So comes a new duty & fate,
Bringing new hope & joy,
Now i'm a life renewed,
So here I am, TAR KL.
"Graduation"

The week after,The week coming.

2006-05-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since my church's Family Day on Labour's Day.
Yeah,its been a blast...To my games tat is and for those playing.
1st game's fine 2nd game almost's fine then 3rd game's a goner.
After a long explaination of the games rules and throat numbing dryness.
After i start the game they juz broke every single 1(rules) of them.
Oh well at least they enjoy it...Breaking the rules tat is..
Heh..haha..
Real tired when i got back.Slept from around 12-18 i think.

Got up.Sis woke me 4 da movie we're goin."Failure to Launch".
Matthew McConaughey and Sarah Jessica Parker.
The perfect man and the perfect woman.I think.
Heh.But its more like a perfect lie.
If someone ask me who's my perfect girl,i'll hav to say its Sarah Jessica Parker's character(Paula) in "Failure to Launch".
Why?
I guess i'll leave it at tat and you hav to watch it yourselves.

<->

Ah i'm 2 tired for more..
Guess i shouldn't wait too long.
So next time then.Ciau..

Through the eyes of this Ghost..

2006-04-28T08:01:00.000+08:00

Woke this morning(0730) thinkin its evening(1930).
I freak out cos i slept at 2030 last night.
Then i went to bath and all.
I proceed to write a letter to my "boss" and print it out.
Moments later i realized that how come its(the sun) getting brighter instead of dark.
Thought of the end of the world is coming.
Finally it struck me that its morning.
Oh the horror and relief.
Hey call it morning confusion ok?
Dun laugh..i SAID dun laugh!!
*Aim*FIRE!!*Boom!!*

<->

Its interesting how sometimes people forget that i'm there.
With me watching them.
Probably tats y i'll never stop using the "ghost".
The reason for me to use the nick ghost.
Changes over the time.
At 1st,it was that i wanted disappear like a ghost.
Which i do sometime when i'm around ppl.
They say that i disappeared and appeared behind their backs.
Also,it was a time where i felt so alone and left out.
It was like i'm invisible.
Now sometimes ppl still ignore me,so i continue to use my "ghostly" exploits.
I enjoy watching ppl.Most of the time they dun realise it.
On why i enjoy watchin ppl?
Because i enjoy "reading" them.
No,i'm not a mind reader!
The real meaning is tat i read their movements,habits,things they do etc etc..
In fact everythin tat they do has a meaning.
You can do little to hide who u really are.
Unless u r aware of this u'll try to "disguise" urself as much as possible.
But sometime i can see this as well.
Also its not always i can read ppl.
Its usually ppl with certain vurnerabilties tat i read.
Ppl who have really overcame their vurnerabilties is harder to read.
It is only myself tat i can't read.
Although i know myself but its only really i see myself through other ppl.
I do know ppl who try to stay away from me.
I can only reason that they can't "read" me or merely i'm misunderstood.
Sometimes i do know of ppl who din like me for no reason or no proper reason.
Its interest isn't it when some1 dislike u for unknown reasons.
That all for now.
Ciau.

A partially Sad day..

2006-04-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah its somehow a sad day for me today..
Coz all the student nurses went back today.
They were all nice ppl to talk,learn and joke around.
Shared stuff here and there.
Yeah all of us got a real friendship working there.
If anybody is havin a jagged thought,shame on you.
So,there was a obvious sense of loss when they left.
But,no point losing your feelings.
Only a brief goodbye is all i get and give.
In my book havin friends is as important as life itself.
Fortunately i got their hp numbers.
So wat i'm gonna do now is to send a sms to each of them.
Each one different but connected.

So here goes,
1)
[Time's so short]
Our encounter was brief,
Even shorter is our goodbyes,
But no point fretting,
Over thing we can't change,
Little did i know,
How valuable it is,
Our time together,
There's truth u'll never realise,
Until it's gone,
Love may come & go,
but friends last forever.

2)
[Us & U]
You're students,
Yet friends & teachers,
Helping us & teaching us,
Through & through,
None has deeper meaning than this,
That you're there for us,
And Us for you,
Leave is painfull,
But it's only true that,
Life is meant to move on,
So live on,
In case we meet again.

3)
[Our's]
Are patients,
Our gifts or curse?
But it's true then,
We gain certain purpose,
Sometimes thanking them,
is not enough,
But loving them,
is more than enough,
So do Ur best,
in Ur current purpose,
So tat,u'll remember,
& Neva Regret,U hav a purpose.

4)
To never ever,
let a good scolding go to waste,
Tats my style,
To keep a smile,
No matter what,
Its my way.
To care 4 1 another,
Is wat i do,
To "bully" is to show,
me doin just tat.
This is all in all,
my gift to you.

5)
Congrats!!A Free gift 4 U!!
Claim Ur free SMS from XX,XX,XX and XX.
With Extras of Address:XX,
Email/Msn:XX.
XX remember to send me those photos!!

<->

It's pretty weird tat i suddenly wanted to go to youth fellowship today.
Turns out to be a pretty right time for me to go.
For one da Youth leader Sam wanted to hav a youth commitee meeting tonite.
I'm suppose to be invited but he din wan to call me coz he din know wat time i'm workin.
So there i am.
Then at the youth commitee meeting which is in us pizza!!
I had a nice dinner.
Which turns out i was pretty damn right to be there cos Sam wanted to discuss bout the family games which i'm in charge of.
I've remembered to bring along the games copies too!!
"Talk bout God leading..."
Cool rite.
Is this from God tat he wanted me to go to youth today?
.....
I better pray somemore.
OK Ciau..
<->

10 feet under...

2006-04-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

If i'm gonna be buried i rather my grave to be 10 feet under.
No particular reasons.Its just tat i like a all rounded number.
<->
Ah!! Gomen X2!!
Been rather tired lately since i've started working shift in the ward.
*Harh*
But i'm lovin it.If i'm doin anythin,i wanted to always do my best.
Although,i dun think its always seem to other ppl.heh.
Ppl are entitled to their own opinions though.
But still i'm hangin on..To do my best..
Until the time comes to let go..
<->
You see,all my previous crushes are ppl tat i've known n met personally.
But recently,i've seen this particular girl.
Since then i can't seem to get her off my idle mind.
Everytime i go to that particular place i was just hoping all my best tat i'll c her.
Is it just me or did i see her lookin at me then.
Still up for speculations.
If i hav a name for this i'll call it "Mystery Girl Syndrome"
It's like the situations where main characters gets intruiged by some mystery person.
Or maybe i'm watching too many movies.hah.
<->
Oh i'm missing last week's event.(11/4/06)
Well i join the College Cell's team in a Captain Ball tournament.
It was at MBS started at 8.30am.
Some talk,P&W, and warm-up.Then we're through!
Then we lost..
hahaha.
Was it we lost by 4:5?
can't seem to remember but i know we have a difference by 1 point.
But we lost due to "weird" refereing.
Rammin the catcher(or captain),rammin the players,runnin by the other team.
If it were me refereing i'll award several penalty shoots already.
*harh*
So we lost.And i went on as a spare player for the staff team.(Staff team won)
Be a referee for the staff team's match.(staff team lost)
Then finally a final spare player for the USM team.(which became the tournament champs)
Got a prize.Some snoopy mug with a cover.Not something for a guy like me.
At the end of the match some photo shoots here and there.
Me,ended up with a bad aching on my back and underthighs,and some sunburn.
haha..
All this for a mug.heh.
OK. its a nice mug.
<->
Nitez!

That Unsinkable Feeling...

2006-04-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

I was looking accross,
Just can't figure out why,
My gaze ever shifting to that place,
Just why is it?
I can't block out this feeling,
Just like an unsinkable ship,
Now i'm just wishing it never came true,
Just because I found you,
You rised back up from the depths,
Just what is a ship?
That is just never able to sail,
Just floating there idling,
With nowhere to go,
Sometime's it's best it never came true.
"That..."

<->

Not so latest news.Heh.
Recently i've started working in GlenEagles Penang since March 15.
Quite an experience it seems coz i'm doin a nurse's probation before being sent for a training. Hmm..
I do meet a lot of ppl though.
I started in the Accidents and Emergency Dept.A&E or Casualty for short.
If you're looking for me to tell bout all the cases there, well u r out of luck.
Coz i'm not allowed to tell bout da patients there.
Anyways i'm gonna start working in another ward tomorow.
Aparently its a lot more tough than the place i was in.
Don't be supprised,coz A&E in a private hospital is quite free.
Sometimes there's lot of cases or none at all..
Heh..
Went behind the hospital for lunch usually.
Tried the Curry Mee,Chicken Rice, & Wan Tan Mee.
I rather take the curry mee & chicken rice any day..
There's also a nice cafe in Gleneagles too called "Harveys".
Smell of nice food always come from there.
Tried a cake last fri.Its Choc Mint Cake.
You gotta heat it up a little(20 secs?) before eating.
So the cake is a little moist & soft.
Got it with a nice choc & mint taste.
Still something's mising.
In the end ordered a Mocha.
Goes well with the cake.Of cause all things nice comes with a price.
Cake=5,Mocha=6.Not cheap heh?Once a month is an ok thing i think.

<->

As you can see some wierd things happen.
Just as i've forgoten my last crush come another one tat caught my mind.
Get this i dun even know who she is!
Argh but still this din stop me from "sensin" her each time she's close..
Self-dianostic:He's crazy already.

<->

How would it be like..,
To experience death?
That happen to someone close,
Enough to make you cry,
To break your heart,
Wishing is was you instead,
Why is it must be him?
To go before his time,
Not being able to fullfill dreams,
Of his own and of others,
No reasons make sense enough,
To cure this hurt in the heart,
Then again,
Who are we to question God's will,
Who choose to take him back,
At that time and then,
If there's a meaning in every birth,
Then there's a meaning in every death,
There is no loss in a death of a godly man,
Finally that's when you pray,
God bless his soul,
And others after.

#:A dedication to certain close friend's friend's deaths.

<->

Good nite.

Tis the night that comfort me..

2006-03-09T02:56:00.000+08:00

Perhaps its the night that that runs me to write.
Where the air becomes calm,
its like i'm able to flow gracefully,
the invisible dance where only my mind can see,
where my body feel it flowing within,
its a time when i feel almost free,
my will cast out,feelings run free,
the world disappears,
leaving only a void where none can fill,
finally dawn comes bringing its light,
as well as bringing me together again,
filling my void,connecting my pieces,
then i'm made whole again.

<->

How i started out writin became a poem i don't know(if you can call it that).
Perhaps its true.Writing at night makes its easier(its da real night).
Where words flow from my fingertips as if water.
Opps better not get started again.
I'm not much of a poet anyways.
Coulnd't stand reading much poems anyway.
But i do enjoy releasing a flicker of my feelings now and then.
(If you want,its ok to tell of any correction to be made)
Thats the magic of bloging.
Doing it not because you want to and not because you have to.
(Those of you having bad thoughts,better repents now.)
I'm also aware that there will be people who'll eventually reads my blog, one way or another.
Its mostly senseless banter or possible rubbish to some.
But to those who find it inspiring,i'm thankfull to God that i can do as such.
To those that find this entertaining,i hope that future blogs will continue to do that.
Although i can't really promise that.heh.
I can only really promise this.
This is where i'll convey feelings,knowledge and thoughts.
Anything more that,take it as a bonus.
Everything i leave here is a gift, a contrary to gifts i could not afford.
Thank You.

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Missing myself..

2006-03-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hargh..
Finally pushed my self enough to write today..
I really should start writing more..
heh..
Well lets check ma latest happenins.

Hah,results from last Sem finally came..
I've pass 3 subs out of 4..
Good?
Well not really.Espeacially if i've aimed to pass all.
Plus,i've gotten rid of all my notes i'm resittin last sem..
Hmm bummer..

This bring me to my next bummer point..
Recently i've been given da option to study psychology.
Before i've also been makin plans to study nursing.
So now i'm kind of a crossroad..

But with my results now..
i've confirm with all parties.
i gotta get a diploma to go straight to study a Psychology Degree.
Except for HELP,there this requirements tat sez tat a "matured" 21 years can join with a SPM cert.But still i gotta send in my application to see if i can.
Still Da intake's May,next exam time is 23rd April.
It seems i might just able to make it..
Analysis n Design of Information Systems 2,
ah buggersome..
Ciau..

A Prosperous Sin...

2006-01-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

Would It Be Sin for not posting on the Glorious First day of Chinese New Year?
Anyways,Have a Blessed n Prosperous Chinese New Year!!
On a futher note,
does everyone knows important Sms is meant to be replied.
Going to Eli's house on 1/2..
Ah trying hard to arrange every thing.
Everyone!!Call or Msg me ASAP!!
[Edit]Yup finally got my confirmations just moments after i wrote da 1st version.
So here da confirmation!!So far..
Ben,Peng Soon,ME,Wai Yi,Clarene & Ivan.Are goin to Elle's House on da 4th day of new year!!
Elle!!Wait 4 Us.
I sorry tat Anna,Yvonne,Hui Wen cannot make it but we'll make it next time rite?
[/Edit]
It would be nice if i remembered some fancy code for use on this day.
Heh..
Here Some Pic Scouring from da Web.

Not All Tat cool,I know.
Wait till i find a good site.
<->
~Random Thoughts~
Can't seem to get
You out of my head,
Even after so long
I thought I've forgoten you,
Then you appeared
In front of me,
Without realizing that
I'm the one that found you,
Deep inside of me,
Is the me that didn't want to forget,
This is the me,
That kept on longing & hoping,
Then again the other me,
Also Knows....,
Things that don't belong,
Will never be belong,
So in the end,
You'll only be in the deep crevices of my heart.

A guilty trip...?

2006-01-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ah i'm back again...
Hmm should i feel guilty for leavin this space ignored so long?
Should i?
Maybe i should..
After all..I wanna make this blog a KICK A** one!!
ONE TAT'll RULE da World!!hahaha!!
.......
Sorry another of Kenny's insane ramblings.
<->
So well tats another 3 weeks gone i think.
NO excuse,i juz got nothing to say tats all.
But on da latest updates.
TARC's exams are coming this week.
For 2 weeks then a week of Chinese New Year(CNY) then another last week for exams.
I've 4 exams.20/1,21/1,26/1,10/2.
Juz 1 after after CNY,this sthinks.heh.
Not tat i can do anythin bout it.
Hmm..Reading "Shaman King" while doin this.
Somehow i can't feel the urgency to study..
I know exam's near but i'm juz dead cold on it..
hah..Guess i'm shited now huh?
I wonder if i've still got da strength to push through this.
I still wanna pass all da subjects tat i'm taking for this last time.
So,looks like i've got no choice but to pass huh?
So be it then.I'll have to PUSH.
<->
Another update.
I fell off my bicycle 2 weeks ago while goin down hill.
Got Busted up real bad.
Got stiches in 4 places.(Will upload pics some time)
1 on my head,1 above my lips,1 on my right elbow,1 on my left hips.
oh yeah,wat happened?
Well,I was goin down this mini hill..
Went pretty fast i remembered.
Then i wanted to slow down.
I did the "brake and turn left right".
My steerin turned sharp right instead.
Lost control.Flew.Struck da tar road.Roll.Stop.
I remembered moaning for help.
My head humming can't really hear.(My suroundings sounds distant)
Then few ppl came to help.
One guy ask me to call my fren.
Called Joseph.
He came with his fren to pick me up.(I forgot his name!!Sorry!!)
Sent me to GH with me in full pain leading da way.(They Din know da way)
Whoa gonna be long story if describe everything.So in short.
I waited quite long before i was painfully numbed,da anesthetic is like fire at first!!
I then got stiched,joseph sent me back.
Called my sis to pick me up to get me home.
End
Quite painfull in da coming days then.
<->
not much time to write more.
so ciau..

Its Past Christmas!!..Sob

2005-12-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

Ah looks like i've miss out on a Christmas post.
So this also as thanx to all who included me in their chrismas.
1.Yvonne(Sms)
2.Germaine(Sms)
3.Carolyn(Card)
4.Jhia Chi(Sms)
5.Eu Jin(Sms)
6.James(Sms)
Some cute sms tat u got me.
Nice card from Carolyn.
<->
So wats da latest happenins around few days ago.
Well da CF's Christmas Celebration just finish last week on Wed.
Comments?
Oh it went quite well in my opinion.
Although i've quite a night running in full power around.
Oh yeah,Yvonne! I met Mary-Lee on tat night.It seems tat 1 of 2 Questions band members invited her.
So tats y i tried callin u..heh..u din pick up.so i juz got lazy.
<->
Juz another week before C'mas Celebration.
I had my Youth Camp at Stella Maris.
Heh i've become a "Runner"(another running job)which my job is to go out to get stuff tat camper need(water,bread,lightbulb etc) but at da head orders.
Well i do other things as well.
Such as keepin da whole program in shedule.
Signal time limit for da campers.
And filin in for some help.(Games,station games etc)
Ah i've got a time there.
Not much time to breath cos its a jamed packed shedule.
Some of the 3 things worth mentionin are:-

1.I brought my lizard there.(2nd day at camp)
Quite a a commotion with 2 of da fasilitators.

2.I was in charge of a Station Game called EGG DROP!!
This wat they need to do.
They need to drop an egg from the first floor without breakin da egg!!
Sounds hard?Dun worry they've got some tools to help them to protect da egg.
10 straws,1/2 of a piece Star newspaper and futher cut into 2,1/2 a meter rafia string and a 3 meter scorch tape.
Sound helpfull?Wonder how many teams make it?
None!! and there are only 3 teams!!Muahahaha!!
It is not impossible but it's rather how u do it.
Unfortunately its rather long if i'm gonna explain it here.
Even though none of da teams make it but its still teamworks tat counts.
Sometimes,one's true teamwork spirit only comes out when the team is
met with an Unknown.
So i really had fun watchin them tryin to protect their eggs.
Its like they forgot tat i'm there and their teamwork starts to show personally.
The one thing tat i've learned is tat teamwork does not comes from a team,
but real teamwork comes from each individual.
Its how well u work with other ppl n not how well a team works.

3.Went to butterfly farm.
Finally in my whole life i'm there.
Not tat cheap though.Rm10.
Not only butterflies only there though.
Got to check out other varieties of reptiles,insects,scorpions and creepy crawlies.
I'm soon started thinkin tat my lizard might not be an iguana.
Heck there are few types of iguana there!!
Of couse mine did not fit any of them although they looked very similar.
So i'm still lookin for da name of my lizard's species.

tats all.Ciau.

ps:
-there's this one time my lizard had a really weird colour on its back.
its like quite black near its neck and red around half its back.
-my lizard also changes it scales colour base on its mood.
eg,it's quite pale green most of the time but when its quite active then all its stripes come out.
-i'll try to put up a pic ASAP.

My first Bloody(literally) Job

2005-11-29T13:49:00.000+08:00

So yup my job was to help da good doctor to operate on this dog.
And it was da first day i'm at da vet's too.(2 weeks ago)
..So wat i did was i help him to cut open da dog stomach and all da guts spill out....
......juz jokin,din happen tat way.
All da Doc did was juz get da blood out from da dog's ear swellin.
then take out 2 some growth at da dog's stomach.
the other days are quite interestin as well as i continue to learn new stuff.
ASk me bout it.
<->
Yesterday,
i woke up to a sight of an young iguana walkin on my window sill.
I've grown acustom to sights of geckos,shiny skinks and occational young iguana outside my tanjung bugah room.
But i neva really expected 1 to acctually get in my room!!
So wat i did?
Thinkin of how some girls tat i know of would srceam their heads off.heh.[evil tot]
Then i proceed groggily to grab a plastic bag then slowly and slowly got near it..
Then i caught it then place it in a plastic bag which is now still in my room.
At da same time i'm searchin everythin bout iguanas online.
Oh well,there's too much info for me to digest.
wanna help me?Wanna know more?CAll me.
Ciau..

YO i'm back!!

2005-11-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

Heh..
I'm lazy..Sorry..
Looks like i can't update u guys on wats missin since i've been gone.
Lets see if i can remember wat happen last week.
......oh raya....
opps before raya..
went out for Double Movie with Yvonne,Anna,Clarene,Gek Kim and ah Anna's bro..
Can't remember his name..Sorry Anna..
Heh..So we went for a double movie which tranporter 2 and Zorro 2.
With Lunch in between for them..
Thats last Wed to you.Then there was raya which i laze around till Sun.
<->
Then there's this week.
Hmm..
After so long not meetin my EX-crush, well its a weird feelin.
i dunno,do i still harbor feelins for her?
Juz talkin with her perk me up,made me happy a bit.
Juz a bit sad when she talk happily to another guy.
Even her screamin at me makes me a lot happy.
Oh well pass is pass better not "invoke" those feelins again.
<->
Ah,Theres CF last Tues.Not much special except its Eunice's birthday.
Da commitee anounce it in da CF.
Then off we go to Faces for dinner.
I took a ride with Jemima which i tot Joseph told to get me.
So i left Joseph with Yee Wei and uh Gary or Danny?NVM.
Sorry guys if you r readin this.
Nothin happen much except tat da in-house singers arived in time to sing Eunice's birthday song.Hah..
After tat got on Yee Wei's car.
Next stop,da Pasar Malam at tanjung bugah market.
Walk around a bit.
Next stop,went da BBQ-steamboat which a CF member(Carolyn) is at.
Stop there for a while to chat around.
Next stop,Took Carolyn to the beach after dropin Yee Wei.
We enjoy the nice air and breeze for a while.
Took some pics with Carolyn's digicam.
Then we got bored then we went home.
I took a bath,listen to the radio and went to sleep.
The End.Happy Endin.
<->
Thurs..
A very bad day maybe..
1.Due to a stomach ache in da early morning(Sun not up YET).
To shit.but i went to da toilet and nothin came.No idea how long i squated there.
As result i went back to sleep with an aching stomach.
Got up late which i miss my 2 clases.
Dave(YWAM) msg woke me up.
We were suppose to do a discussion on da Purpose Driven Life Book.
2.While i was cycling toward da Chicken Rice place(Tanjung Bugah Cafe)
I saw a downed motorcycle probably from a accident.
as i cycled closer.I saw Chad(YWAM).
I tot tat couldn't be Dave in da accident is it?
Got real close.It is Dave with Sam(TARC).Sittin down with scrapes and scraches.
I really glad tat its not lyin down with blood flowin all over.
Really thank God tat its only scrapes and not broken limbs.
Considerin tat its an EX5 bike versus a BMW.
The story is tat BMW tried to make a U-turn Dave is goin straight.
BMW guy din looked behind and turn then bang Dave.
Da car hit Dave with its front right.
Last i heard Dave and Sam were flyin after they're hit.
Well there are some more things happen after tat but i dun really need to go into detail do i?
<->
Wow look like i over wrote again din i?
Oh well i wish u good week.Ciau.
PS:-
1.I'm currently atracted to 3 gals rite now.All are at diffrent places.
Not yet at crush level.Only 1 will be so who will it be?
2.Da broken parts of dave's bike are least 15 tat need to be repaired or replaced.
Da parts minus da workmanship is extimated to be around RM480++.

Shockingly Shockin

2005-09-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

Ah Not much of a day for me.
Except for a Special little encounter.

So how's today?
Woke up today..
Later went to college to send in ma form to retake 1 of ma subjects.
Well da special encounter was before i went to college.
In da lift i forgot to bring my shades so after the lift went to ground floor i waited to go up again.
Guess who came in?
It da gal i met at da last PC Fair!!
She came in said "hey".Guess wat i said...a very loud "OOHH!!"
Then i ask for her name..and her is "-insert-".
My response is worst tat i can ever give to a girl..
Argh!!how did tat stupid response came out of my mouth...
I wish i could do better..but past is past..

Maybe i couldn't help it cos when she came in she really looked "nice".
I dunno how describe it but she jus really looked attractive.
Argh..am i in love again?
a very big NOT!!
Its jus tat when she came in ma heart jus leap a little..
Heh pray for me...
Ciau..
PS:nothin's final ..

Exam's over!!da Devil's comin out!!Me!!

2005-09-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

WaHahahaha!!
Exam's over(2x)...
Nothin much except on Sat(da day i finish ma exam and Today!!

On Sat,after i've finished ma exam David came to fetch with Clarene.
Our purpose for that day,go to my house for late lunch then....
Watch Final Fantasy 7:Advent Children!!Ya...hoo!!
Ok da meal's fine.
Clarene din understand wats da whole movie bout so it din hav da rite effect.
But its alrite,da action did its job properly.
Movie's over,hang for a while,then bye.heh..an ok event..

Nothin much happenin on Sun.

Today(Mon).
Went out for a movie at Gurney Plaza with Yvonne,Anna,Olivia,David and me.
Watched da Myth.
If you r lookin for a review,Its a great movie.Probably one of Jackie Chan's Best.
Great storyline,gettin action tat out of Jackie's usual style..
Worth your money to watch it at da cinema..
Then after that,we then began our very long journey to our dinner to Bukit Genting.
Except Olivia.We stoped by at Clarene's place to pick her.
She got in Yvonne's car,i'm in David's car.Then only we really began our journey.
I hav to mention this again.Its a very long journey....And i got very hungry.
But we did reach.
And we are rewarded with a sight to behold of Penang tat we've never seen before.
A lovely scenery tat include the horizon,the settin sun,a line of paddy field and to cut it short its a very peacefull scenery all around.
If you're lookin for peacefull evironment while enjoyin delicious Thai food.
This is da place.
<->
Well i wish i've could hav wrote more but this is all i hav..Heh..
Will write more in da future.
Ciau..

A guy needs his chillin..

2005-09-12T02:06:00.000+08:00

Houah!!..
Juz finish 2 freakin Exams yeasterday.(i'm still in Sunday mode)
I think i might pass 1 but bombed 1.Damn sad.
Dunno wat else to write but to pour some thoughts..
<->
Wat would u do if u happen to know this girl broke off with her guy?
Wat if she's also a girl u "used" to have a crush(she knows)?
How am i feelin bout this?
Funnily i dunno wat to feel..Happy?Sad?
Its a kinda weird feelin.
I dunno.
<->

Black Cofee with optional Sugar or Milk..

2005-09-05T19:16:00.000+08:00

Ah!! its been 2 week+ already since i last blog..
Hah..Gomen to all my minions..
<->
Lets start from last week..
Sun-Got a call from House of Notebooks tat ma pay's ready
Tues-heh..Finally went to HoN office to get my pay!!Bought my long awaited headphone mic!!And a packet of coffee beans from starbucks!!(exams near n a man need his cofee)
Wed-Merdeka!!or not for me..I'm still stuck at my place in tanjung bugah to study..
Only been out for a while..i'm totally piss at how a lot ppl make hooligans of themselves after merdeka(midnight)..totally..ridin n drivin around like maniacs.. 'Baka's..
Thurs-Went back today then went for College CG.We played a charade type of game while eatin till we went back..
Fri-Till Sun is as any day..
<->
Last 2 weeks.
Not much..Only on Sat tat we(College CG) had a Beach BBq in colaboration with USM CF.
i woukd like to give a full account but i'm running out of time so next time ok..
Ciau..

Ps:
-I've hav a exam this Sat.
-I've 2 exams this Sat!!.
-I hope i'm studyin well before this Sat..
-Heh..

Another episode of Kenny's weekly..

2005-08-15T14:52:00.000+08:00

To those unknown.I'll only write weekly from now on.
Cos ma life's too damn boring.

So onwards.Startin from last Wed.
Went to watch "7 Swords" with Yvonne at GSC Pg.
Reviews:
No bad action.For those who r unfamiliar with chinese kung-fu stories.
7 Swords is more like the tip of the iceberg.
The storyline less complex than Matrix but something like Matrix.
Meanin it'll get better in da sequel.
Beautifull scenes.Typical chinese phylosophies not to mention cool.
U need to look at da whole picture to really see. da real beauty.
<->
Thurs n Fris quite normal.
Its Sat tat counts.
Y coz tat day i went for a Med checkup at GlenEagles.
Got up and looked out my house window.Got da shock of my life.
Its da first time da haze's tat bad in Pg.
So after i got out of ma flat.Juz get ma bandana and covered up ma mouth and nose.
Got to GlenEagles without much prob thanks to Jasmine.(a helper at GlenEagles)
My heart perk a little da moment i went in da place where i'm suppose to do da check-up.Y? Coz i saw a pretty cute girl.In fact she's da only pretty cute 1 there.
Well she's there doin da med check-up while her fren's there to acompany her.
I reached there around 10 something.
So i juz spent da time stealin glances at her while writin my Ed. Photographer's Guide.
I'm not sure whether she also stole glances at me too but if i said she did i'm 2 perasan.
So all juz went well till da ECG test(heart rythmn).
I'm a healthy sporty male.Yeah!!
I finally get to know da girl(and her fren) after i did da ECG test.
I need transport to da next testin place(PathLab).
Amelia(another helper)intro me to them by tellin tat i need transpot.
After tat i asked her name and her fren's.
So her name's ST and her fren's SS.(Tot tat i'll give u their real names didya?)
All goes well,got to know her a bit.Had lunch at SuperTanker(hawker stall area)
Then they took me back.This time i went back with their phone numbers.Yeah!!
<->
Next was YouthWave at 3pm.Called Yvonne.She said she needed help with da Icebreaker.
And so i went.probably coz icebreaker was my idea.
Da icebreaker din went so well its of a mess but it was ok.
SO was YouthWave which went well but not wat i've visioned.
Kind of shock or dissapointment.I remembered it was HUGE in my secondary days.
Hmm.
Nothin much already after tat.
Went home and took a rest.
<->
Whoa quite a lot for a day ain't it?
Well if i say i'm gonna blog once a week or maybe next time i'll make some exceptions.
Got no Random Thoughts today.
Probably coz i'm too busy nowadays.
No time to wander my thoughts here and there.
Looks like i'll stop here today.Ciau..

PS:
-i started a blog in frienster directin it to here!!muahahaha..
-i'm attracted to girls who who r alwiz smilin and positive.(findin more n more these days.weird)
-i'm so pumped with da recent episode of Gundam Seed Destiny.Damn Cool!!Gettin beter and better.
-finish da manga of Mai-Hime.A manga with a style of its own.somethin i'll find reference to.

With legs sore and temparatures soar..

2005-08-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

Uh-huh..
Came back from all 3 days of PC Fair with a sore leg.
Well tats wat u get from standing 10 hours or more a day.
Is it worth it?I'd say its worth the learning experience.
I neva thought notebooks come in all sizes and purposes.
Used to think notebooks are juz notebooks u need 1 u buy 1.
A least tats one 1 of da things i learnt there.
Another thing is tat u can't sell some things juz by believin in tat product.
U need facts.Then u need to believe tat fact.
Oh well.I dun give a damn bout it anymore cos i'm not sellin it no more.
At least until da next PC Fair.
Oh did i tell how much i sold?
I only sold 7.Da lowest of all us Part-time salesman.
There's this guy sellin 20+ at the end of fair.
Second is 15,third is 9 and endin with me,7.

Oh well.
All is well worth da trouble.U wanna know y?
Sellin notebooks is of da best places to meet cute n pretty girls!!
Call me shallow but i can't help it if i'm a normal guy who looks at girls.
Ok tat sounds pervertic,change it to"i check out girls."
Never in my life where i've come to PC Fair and seen so much (cute/pretty)girls.
Front,back,left,right.
Some r customers.Some,salesgirls which i get to see for 3 days(whopee).
Check this out,of all this i din even make an advancement with any of them.
Yea,i know i'm kinda hearin lots of ppl callin me chicken rite now.Or sympatizing.
Except for this one girl who's kinda friendly.
Summon up enough courage to ask her name.
She din tell demand for mine instead.Gave her.Still no her name.Fine.
Asked if she's still studyin.(Strike 1)She said yes and she's from USM(2nd year)
Asked her if she's 21.(Strike 2)Its a yes.Then tat got her talkin.
More info came.It turns out tat she lives juz under my apartment.
Furthermore she saw me before in da flat.

Kinda cool don't u think?
She takes Translation in USM(its a uni for those unknown).
If i remember corectly she know at least 5 foreign languages.
Real cool.Oh well gotta go.Ciau.

PS:
-Finally played GUNZ,real cool game.
-Went online last Mon.Forgot to blog.Sorry
-Forgot wat random tots to put in this blog.

Feverishly Done..

2005-07-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hah..Got a bad fever last 2 weeks ago..
Found out bout it on Tues..Got worse on Wed evening..
Had to call ma Mum on Wed night to fetch me on Thurs..
Got home,sweat da hell out of myself.I literally sweat till Sat.
Ain't a good experince.
Especially when i've not gotten sick for more than a year ++.

I've got no excuse for not blogin durin tat week.But i guess i'm lazy tats all.heh.
Got not much to write either..Except for how much i've suffered durin tat time..
I dun think u wanna hear tat.
<->
So last week?Basically life is juz da same as it's alwiz is.
Get to class.Try to sleep early.Read my Bible(not alwiz).
So its juz pretty much boring.This leaves me pretty much to think bout stuff.
Unessary stuff if i might add.Bout people around me(girls),stuff i do(being a bzbody),game tat i can't play(yet),personal projects(halfway through).
Haih,guess i'm pretty much confused.

So da floorball league tat i'm in ended yesterday.My team places 3rd.
Not so bad.
So it seems tat my team is great in defence and is on offence majority of da time.
I've scored twice on tat particular week.Neva scored since then.Sad.
Really hope i can score somemore.
But tats wat u get for not enough practice n trainin.
Tats y i'm gonna start trainin again.

Today at dinner,its seems tat there's a snatch thief incident at da place my family had dinner.Some of u will know its da western food stall by da roadside.
All tat happen is tat i heard a scream then a roarin of a motorbike.
Its confirm a snatch thief incident later by some word of mouth.
<->
Wow,missin 2 weeks sure makes this lots of writin.
So now allow me write a part of wat i've been thinkin lately.
Girls,i a guy so it is inevitable tat someway somehow i'm gonna notice girls everywhere.I'm sorry if this makes me sound like a serial stalker.
I know its normal to be attracted for a girl with a nice face.But it stops there.
Its juz stops at attraction.Apparently i dun know tat girl i can't fall for her.
Well i can still be attracted to this particular girl but it alwiz start n ends with me lookin at her then lookin away.I wonder if this is normal.

My last 2 crushes,i fell for them cos of wat they are inside n not because they r pretty.Sadly i tend to know them 1st before they know me.Most of da time they don't.
So wat r da chances of me findin my dream girl?
She has to hav da same interest as i am.Sports(floorball,badminton,basketball) and drama arts.Pc gamin,anime,manga n facial is a plus.Of all this,mental maturity is a major plus.The chances is might be well as none.My last 2 crushes only has one of my major interest.

I guess i like to know a girl tat i can really talk with.As well as sharing dreams n interests.I do find it hard to talk to less than matured ppl as well as ppl who dun take me seriously.Knowin a girl tat can understand me is another 1/mil.Heh..
Wat can i say.I'm hard to understand by most ppl.
I'm talkin too much..Ciau..

PS:-I'm workin at PC Fair this Fri,Sat,Sun.If u wanna buy a notebook,do come look for me yeah.

On a added note..

2005-07-11T11:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,went to da RGBC youth meetin.
Somehow wat i've felt last Sat make sense to me now.
If floorball i wan to be better than ever.
Y not try to be better for Christ!!
Life like floorball is fast and furious..
U score a few goals but u still feel tat u r not good enough.
Yeah,i guess this means i wanna continue grOWin in Christ..
Da only time u stop growin is when U die or when Jesus comes back.
Heh..I've got a lot of growin to do..
<-->
Juz talk bout this to a fren.
Its bout my last 3 MAJOR crushes.
These r da crushes tat i get da "willies" or rather da "heart attacks".
Most will know wat i'm talkin bout.
Lets c.We talk how tragic endin of all my crushes are.
1st crush came to know bout my feelins for her.
Forced me to say it.Endin?We din become a couple.
2nd crush din know bout my feelins at all.
Think its a good thing?Think again.
Its starts well enough to turn into a love-hate feelin.
3rd crush is da most tragic of all.
Confessed to her(almost force),in the end i de-confessed(un-confess,etc) to her.
Do u c da pattern here?Tragic huh?
I feel like tellin da 2nd crush soon bout this expired feelins.
Juz wanna know her response.Wanna take a vote?
Although i've no feelins for her watsoever anymore.

Hehe..guess u guys got to know me a little more today.
Ciau..
<-->

I'm a Happy Happy guy Today!!

2005-07-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

Wa hahaha,
Today!!At da floorball RGBC league I scored a total of 2 goals!!
Not much but its better than last week.Which i got no goals or an unallowed goal.
Argh!!I'm still not satisfied with myself.Gotta train!!
I've goten better compared to last week.
I wanna grow!!Heh..talkin like a kid..feels like a kid again.
Hmm..i wanna do as much as posible or i feel like i got not much time left.
No i'm not dying..Juz feels like it.
Anybody who wans to be my personal coach can call me.heh.

The latest Bomb attack in London.
Although i dun show anythin physically,I feel sick to the core.
I think bout ppl who died.Hav they know Christ?Why did they die?
How will this benefit anyone?It feels like its so easy to kill nowadays isn't it?
Then i think bout ppl in Malaysia.
In the news,all i hear is are "Malaysians" safe?.Are they all rite?
I understand that Malaysians tightly knited(?).
But wat bout ppl who are not Malaysians?
Do we forget bout them sayin its their problem?
Haih..I dun claim to be all good for humanity either.
All i know it doesn't feel right.
I pray GOD use this for his purpose.

After 3 weeks,i expected tonnes of stuff to write.
Heh,i'm getin old.Bye.

Finally!!

2005-06-19T14:42:00.000+08:00

I'm Baptised today at church today..
Sorry to those i din invite to this but this is really a private matter..Heh..
A whole new is waitin for me and which i've waited for um..6 years?
The timing is none the less perfect..Cos an "auntie" at church saw a vision bout me.
Bout da vision thingy i've been shared to and i'll share it to frens closest.
So you know who u r so ask me bout it if u wanna know.ok?

So uh wat else?
ok last week,i've been prayed to by a missionary Pastor.
He prayed against Devil's lies n curses.Seriously my head cleared afterthat.
All da negative thoughts in my head disapeared like nothin happened.heh..
Ok this is 2 weeks(sat)ago but i thought its worth sharin.

Next,tues,Zurene invited me to buy food from her in front of her house.
The food cheese n black pepper sausages and fried rice.
I got 1 each=Rm 3.
I then proceed to help her business or help her.
Her business how should i say,its juz ok enough.
Nothin much happened,juz sat around chattin.Oh did i mention tat she had a rabid dog?
Its juz way crazy..dun get in his way.

Wed,CF's on again.
Well this is the commitee's 2nd CF meetin.
Not all is well with the P&W as da lyrics is again on da black board with 2 songs.
Da guitarist string broke halfway through.Oh well..life goes on..
The rest of da programs well pretty well through.Although i'll not describe it.
End of meetin is da CF Photo Session!!by yours truly.
Nice pics i might say..After all its by yours truly.i'll put it in once its out.

Fri,Helped Yvonne with makin kunyaku jellies.
Her care group is part of a Food n Fun Fair.n they hav a stall there.
Naturally i help her for da whole day n ended up with a runnin nose.heh.
Sat,went to train floorball with RGBC.
Got chosen as Group leader for upcomin floorball league organise by RGBC.
my group?uh ragtags would be da correct word?
OK,trainin,lunch,back at house almost 1pm.hung up my laundry.sleep till 3.
Went to da Food n Fun Fair site.work and dine there till 10pm somethin.
Yvonne took back few grurpies(tiny fishes)to her house.Dunno wat happened with them.

Fri and Sat i've been out and movin non-stop and drop dead when i reach home.
haha..

Whoa i've wrote a lot.Update ya next time.heh.

HeadacheX2

2005-06-14T15:28:00.000+08:00

Haah..i'm in da EVER-SLOW internet Room in my college...
Y?Coz i'm helpin somebody to take some pics..
Oh the things i go through as 1 of da best photograhers in my college.Heh..
Ok its Tues.I dun think da problem's solved yet but it "seems" to be goin tat way.
Dun ask me y n how.I seriously dun know.
Old problems comes a ringin again.
It seems last year i took some class photos and da previous commitee took orders and cash from some of the class reps already.
Now the problems is this,no photos hav been developed and there has been certainly no trace of the money.
So where did this go?
This is not the only screw up tat da previous Committee left.
So many more tat i can't say.
Oh well,its another one of those days where i'm involved n i've no control.

OK time's runing.Gotta go now.

Problems,problems although not mine..

2005-06-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

Hai..
I dun understand y kids(my year 2junior05/06)tend to cause so much problems.
This time it's de ED. Board.
This friend of mine,hav been helpin me in previous photography sessions.
Real big help actually.
Heres da problem.She can't here credits hours for last year.
Da previous commitee promise me tat they will give her 1.
This year i found out tat they didn't.No biggie.
I ask da new commitee to get her 1.Da prez agreed.
Secratery didn't wan to give her..
Next my successor(Head Photographer) began to find problems with my real successor.
This happens when people tat is not suppose to take a post take a post tat is not theirs.(I've already choose my Head Ph. but a Lec puts in a rumor tat she's quitin college.
So in the end a on da spot Head is choosen.

I've gotta solve this on Mon.Afterall i've got a Respondsibility to my juniors.
Thanx for your comments on da last post.I'll pray for them.
*japanese*"Oya Suminasai".*Sign out*

Argh so frustated in doin nothin..

2005-06-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Crap..After waitin so long for da CF's Grand Openin in TAR College05/06.
It all ended in my frustation n dread..
actually its not all tat bad its coz da situation is not with them..
1.Da air-con is 1/2 workable=hot!!
2.P&W no tranperancy=White board.(They got it da last minute)
3.Started with introduce urself.Then P&W.
Then a whole long intro of da commitee n Speech.Silence(Suppose is icebreaker).Then
4.Ms Monica's speech bout how christian's should act.
5.Prez comes out and says "..u can eat now..".Silence..
6.After a while.1 of commitee comes out and say grace.
Tats roughly bout it.
IF there is any reason its not to be trusted then discard this statement.
The only right thing tat da seniors did was to go mingle and serve food to those unmovin junior.
Oh well,enough complainin.Not tat i can change anythin.
Its juz tat after a week of planing n this wat comes out?Come on man..

Oh wats?I'm gonna really start studyin this sem..
As well as continue finishin my script of long overdue.
U know sometimes after all tat long years of experience and hard work.
YOu are juz not apreciated.You know..sucks.
When u tell ur precious junior not to do somethin or do it.
They go anyway and do another thing.
Which acordin to prediction,it went down da drain=Srewed.
Juz when u put so much trust in ppl,then turn around disappointed and backstab+betray
YOU!!
Does happen to u?Well it might not or 1 day it might..
Not tat i say its wrong to trust ppl.But once stabed.Its better to remember it.
I'd rather not hav nothin to do with this ppl anymore..
Forgivin is another thing.Gettin away is da smart thing.
Yeah its da smart thing.Bye..

Back For While..

2005-06-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

Its been erm how many weeks since i've been online?
ah..long enough.(seriously,i ain't countin)
Writin this blog in a internet cafe.
Of all places..Oh yeah!!
Yvonne ain't goin to KL anymore cos..(can't tell u tat)
Since i got betrayed for da last Floorball Tournament.
i din sleep well..
But i manage to say a prayer of forgiveness a day after.
I can say this,as a human n Christian i've forgiven them though it hurts like hell!!
but as a floorball player,i've not.
The next time i meet them as a player is not as a friend but an opponent.

So college started already and i'm as busy as i can be.
Still trainin da next gen. of photographers.
Too long hav pass..so i'll juz stop here..
Drop me a line will ya?

Rea|ity Check..

2005-05-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

Its been 2 weeks since i last posted..
Haih Guess i need to to off da com for a while to post somethin.
Been thinkin..Bout y i do da things i do?
Bout y i'm still stuck in college with 4 resits n a repeat..(Last sem's results out)
I really wanted to get the hell over with this shit..
But can't seem to do it rite...Wat does this prove?Dun wanna know..

Watch "ice princess"(pirated,i knowX2)i know how girlish tat title sounds but nevermind.All i can c is nothin but beautiful overall show.
If i do reflect it upon my life.I can relate to betrayal,being bumped down,wantin to do wat i most love and wanted to do.Then i realise how much faith i've put into friends and ppl around me.

This week will be a week of important events.
1)Yvonne's leavin to KL to HELP Institute to study Psychology.(This Thurs)
2)Sat is Floorball Tournament day.(Will probably also be da last tournament for da team i play for)
3)Reults for last sem's exams came out today.Failed 2 subjects.
4)My driver's licence dies on this Sat.

Next week i'll be back in my other room near college.
In time for da orientation which i'll be takin photos for.
If u r goin to TAR College Penang..i'll C U..Call me.

Test and Tests!!Take it if u want!!

2005-04-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

Kenny, you're Cool as Ice

No doubt about it — you've got things under control. A thinker and a planner, you usually don't jump into anything without a plan to get in and a plan to get out. It's pretty safe to assume that you're the brainiac of your friends, and they turn to you when they need someone to take the lead.

You're full of good ideas, and you've got the ability to execute them. You're also especially skilled at letting your head rule your heart. There's nothing you won't accomplish if you set your mind to it. Now that's cool.
What Kind of Cool Are You?

Kenny, your Emotional IQ is 121.

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success.

Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.

So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is emotional management — how much you let your emotions affect the world around you.

This is not to say, however, that emotions never contribute to your decisions. At times the emotions you are having are appropriate guides for your actions. And with your keen sense of emotional management, you'll know when and where to base decisions upon them.
The Emotional IQ Test

I'm still awake but spinin..

2005-04-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

Its a wonder tat i'm still awake n not passed out sometime ago..
Reason?I only slept 1 hour only from 6am-7am..
And i went to Youth Park to play some games for this coming Family day..
All equally tiring.
Went to hav lunch at Pizza Hut next.(Stuff maself..)
Got home around 3.30pm.Had a nap at 4.30.Woke up at 5.30pm.
Y? Gonna go for floorball practice at Dalat High.
Until 11pm got back almost 12am.

Whoa ma head really spining now...
Random things keepin popin into my head..

Aiyah,not really satisfied with myself at floorball practice today..
Need to train more..Keep tryin to do things tat i probs keepin up.
But not even tat tired also..
But after coolin down.da tireness sets in..

Wah my eyes really feel like popin out ready..
Gotta rest ASAP..

PS:oh yeah bout da last CareGroup which Yvonne sends a wrong message to me.
Actually i'm suppose to do an ice breaker but Yvonne din tell me.
But...I still did da ice breaker with extra message!!Cool!!
All thanx to God..Amen..

Test's over N nothin to do...

2005-04-21T16:32:00.001+08:00

Yup hah...
Yvonne missend me a message which is for da host for tonite's CG.
Well she does has a habit to "Send to many" msgs..heh..Yvonne x2..
Well due to dat i went through my head to create or try to remember an icebreaker..
i did create 1 but to my relief i called her today confirm tat missend msgs.

Talk bout creatin games.I AM interested to create an Online MMORPG.
Its like Sci-Fi crashed with Fantasy and Strategy Combined with RPG!!
Sounds crazy huh...some might not understand this but..
i might go for full with this if i can get da nessary help i need to do this..
What i need is pure talents but i think i also need a whole lot of programmers and not to mention a whole motherlode of credits...
This thing i've dreamed is BIG..heh..Juz call me if u wanna hear bout it..

Nothin else to say..Hmm..
I'll juz review da few new anime then..
Eye Shield 21=Sports,Comedy.
Due to da manga tat is now running in "Kreko",i've have certain expections.
Although it does try to stay true to da manga storyline but it does lack in da feel of da manga coz i think cuttin out some outrageously funny stuff in da manga,
Defeels da anime.Its suppose to be fun,excitin,funny,full of spirit.
My verdict?Manga read is better than this but who knows,they might change da pace.

Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicle=Fantasy,Drama
From da famous "Clamp" team tat create da manga Cardcaptor.But da producers are da ones tat create ".Hack//Sign".Which means Very cool!!
Opps sorry..I haven't read da manga but from da first looks,this is one great Anime to watch!!Da soundtrack is something to look forward to as well..
With mesmerizing Character,Background and Overrall design.A haunting OST tat pulls u in..this is goin to be a worthfull watch..Get it at AnimeSuki.com before it get licenced.

whoa i wrote quite a bit already..heh..
not much bout my personal life this time..
OK..now to finish it off..
If u hav read Naruto,this how i would be..
Ciau..

Which Naruto Character are You?
Test by http://www.naruto-kun.com

I'm back until then...

2005-04-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

I've finished my last exam(Data Comm) yesterday..
Honestly,i'm not really confident bout these 3 exams although i did study..
Hah..Guess can't say anythin else but wait for the results...
Got this damn bad block n runny nose since last thurs morning
(i knew i shouldn't rub eyes tat day!!)
Oh did i tell,
tat i ACTUALLY told my crush tat i wanted to let go of my feelins for her...
Yeah she knew bout my feelins n i told really told her.
She n i still talk n msg each other.More like bro sis relationship now.
Oh another interestin note,i knew bout her BF After i decided to let go.
Kinda glad n thankin God.

So how i'm feelin now?
Still kinda tired.Probably coz by messed up sleepin paterns durin my last 2 exams.
Gotta admit its kinda lonely stayin alone near college.
But who's complainin with all this privacy n freedom.
Of coz with very limited access.
PS:
Goin to free up lots of space on this PC tomoro gettin very little space for new stuff.

New cool animes!! D/ls:Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicle,Ichigo100%,Eye Shield 21.
Animes Ongoin D/ls:Gundam Seed Destiny,Buzzer Beater,Jinki:Extend,Oh My Goddess.

Ghost_Ex, your career personality type is ISTJ

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, you have a quiet determination and sharp mind — you're very focused and buckle down when it comes to work. You are the type of person one looks to in a crisis. While others may provide emotional support in a situation, your clear and logical thinking allows you to solve the problem at hand.

You are adaptable and can work independently or on a team. You are a careful thinker and get all the details before making any decisions. You don't jump to conclusions and stick with the facts provided. In other words, you're the go-to person for the real story, not the spin or gossip. While others may view you as a bit stubborn at times, they begrudgingly respect your ethics and straightforward approach.

The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 7% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 7% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.

Career Personality Test

3 weeks passed and Exam's Next week!!

2005-04-08T18:49:00.000+08:00

Ah..Its been 3 weeks since i've posted..
Sad i'm now losin my net life after movin out to study..
Heh..I'm now setlin in easy at my new place.
So updates x2!!
So CF farewell for the seniors happen last week wed..
Really felt like an old man there..Heh..
And also i've decided to let go of my feelins for my crush already..
This happens when u can't take anymore of the pain in ur heart..
I was sad tat nite..Din see anybody either the next day but i felt relief..
The relief of been set free from the feelins tat seems to crush u.
Of coz this wouldn't be possible without God.
1 of the little miracles tat i've been blesed.
I'm more happy and Focused now..
Dun seemed to hav anymore things to say..
Result of leavin 3 weeks without blogin.
So how will this life go on?Where will it lead?
Only God will tell..

PS:-
Air Tv has finally finished.Really sad story in the end but nice to watch throughout.
Go download it from AnimeSuki or get it from me.

Been really scramblin for my Windows Programin exam next Mon.Help!!

Hah...I'm now available again..But not seeing anyone soon..heh

Last Words Before I.....

2005-03-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

Start packin and start stayin near college..
Yup u heard it..Although a bit tad late by 2 years...
This is my pilgrimage until i've finished resitin all ma subjects(6).
Although i'll be home usually on Sat and Sun.
I hope this will help me in da exams which is in a month's time.
Hmm..i havn't start packin yet..so i'll to cut this short.
So this probably means i'll be online a lot less often.
So grab me if u want on Sat and Sun.

So long my PC,so long TV,Solong watever...
Ciau

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually?

You tend to like to make calculated risks.

So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...

You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

Robots Premiere!!

2005-03-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

Yes i watched "Robots"!! Today!! and Its free!! with Free drinks and popcorn!!
Yes!! its good..Its Funny..Its Sacastic(If U understand)..Hey!!I hate to spoil this but
STOP reading if u dun wan a Spoiler..Look Out For tat "Mickey" wannabe..
Plot's damn simple..Kiddy plot but if u r around Britney era till now..
U'll find plenty to relate 2..I'll hate myself for spoilin it for u...

So enough of tat..Wat now?of yeah latest updates..
Spose to go to work yesterday..
Ok although i hate to admit this but i was "convinced" by my mum to not go for it.
Had to call up to tell tat i'm not goin..was only convinced da day before..
Intended to go there and apologise but din wake up on time.So...no more excuses..
Felt bad the whole day..in fact i've neva felt so rotten da whole day!!...
I'm neva doin this again!!Argh!!

So wat i've been doin other than complain bout my life?...heh..
Could say i've been playin GBA games but it seems tat i've been hacking more than i play.I play a little then hack a lot.
This happened after i've got this nifty program..TSearch..
and understand how-to's of "unknown values"
GBA rom games are very easy and fast to hack..
Its just takes a lot of time to document everything.Mostly values..
Call me up if u need any tips on hackin games usin TSearch..

Tats all..Ciau..

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Yesterday, Today : Bringin Back The Pass...

2005-03-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

Argh my legs are aching like crazy...
This is what u get for tryin out for a Badminton competition after you yourself hav stop playin after so long and recently just started playin again...
I hav to admit, there are good enough players in my college..
Well at least i beat da first team and proceed to the quarters..
and meet the Winner of the tournament..
Well we got our arse kick badlyby them...Its a doubles competition did i mention...
Tried playin a few games with my partner after..for singles..
got beaten but its probably due to my crammin leg..Which the result is like now..

Yesterday went to FGA's youth P&W concert..Realised somethin..
Heh even though i don wanna go to da front like i used to a few years back..
With a reason that i'm too old...or i felt old..can't feelin like this though.
After such a long time haven't been in the youth scene,really feel that i'm such out of place..
But anyways anyhow....the next thing i know,i'm in da front praisin and worshipin with the rest in front...i guess deep down i also wanna do wat i've used to do..
Also today,It felt young again.Yeah i know i'm only 20++ but i cant help feelin old you know.I guess this is what they call adulthood.huh..

PS:
last wed i scolded a class for wastin my time and being inconsiderate.
Really a terrible class.
i've taken photos of so many classes and this class manage to make me so angry.
But i manage to keep my anger from burstin overly.Only scolded them them without shoutin.Then return to my usual manner and directed the photo shoot as normal.
Relly thank God for that.Havn't been angry for sometime already.

Last week,i think i made my crush angry or irratated.
So i appologised X2.She gave hint tat she's in some kind of mess or somethin.
But she wouldn't tell.Guess i'm not in that level of trust yet.
Anyways i'm happy this week,we are still frens.
Even gave me her usual critism and sarcasm.Then we laugh bout it.
So we still hav a chance rite?I hav'nt lose that feelin yet.
Only time will tell.
God's timin.

Woke up late again..

2005-03-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hell..
I woke up late again for my photography session for year 1s.
Woke up at 11am somethin while my 1st photosession is suppose to start at 10am.
Well tats who i am.can't even wake up to my preset alarm clocks(2)
Or maybe i'm 2 tired.so 11am rushin to get bath,dressed,get my mom to take me.
To cut a long story short,i still arived late enough to hav 7 missed classes.
Still a not to much an uneventfull day.
Full of kids wanna change their timeslot(much excuses).
Kids fussin on how should they look.
Kids who think they do better than a photographer who is lookin at them while they r standin in their rows.
Ah..Why did i do this job in the first place?Oh, i like photography!!Idiot.
Yeah,i do like but the only thing i can do is take photos of kids!!
I need a real photography job!!
Which is really hard hard to find and get.
Get this although it sounds braggy.I'm a good or should i say i'm a great photographer!!
If only i can show my best shots which are a lot from a recent event(Odessey Nite).
Hah wat can i say.i don't even have my own camera(my last broke).
Well pray and wish.Good nite.
Ciau..

What If..........?

2005-03-06T02:19:00.000+08:00

What if a girl u hav feelins for suddenly ask you to forget bout her.
Throw away your feelins that u had for her for sometime now.
On a reason that she is not what she seems.
Should i throw my feelins, Feel the hurt and then move on again.
how is that so?
If feelins such as love is so easily thrown away,
would there be love that we hav seen today.
Some guys would be more than willin to throw their feelins and move on without hurtin.
But i'm not them some guys.
i've learn to cherish these feelins.Happiness,Sadness,Love,Regret.
Its how i learn again and again how to cherish these feelins.

Another Decision to make
whether to continue on to finish my resit my exams.
Another future decision which to go to Australia to work as a trainee Nurse(Dun Laugh).
And if its possible,i'll study Psychology there.
One decision,is to continue on.Finish what i started.
Which is in line with my personal principals.
Decision decisions.i'll let time tell then.
Only God can tell me on my decisions and feelins.
Thank You.

What is this Feelin?
This achin in my heart,
Only i can tell.

Tired Bored and findin work..

2005-03-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

Haaah...
where did i left off..
Ah yes Cameron Highlands..i'm lazy to give an essay.
So point form!!
-Left my place at 6.15am(thought i was late)
-Reach there....Only 2 ppl was there.....(They're late)
-In the end we left around almost 7am.
-1st stop.Ipoh for breakfast..Damn smelly toilet can't stand it.
-On da way non-stop to Cameron Highlands!!
-Reach our destination at around 2pm i think.Greet da pastor.Check in da chalet.
-Off to lunch.(Bad naan bread(honey).half cooked with plastic in it.)
-Walk around where we had lunch.Went back around 4pm.
-Back.Bath and sleep.Woke up by noise of loud stompin and doors banging.
-Went out again to da church at 6.30pm.
-Reach da church at around 7pm.
-Got in,fix da Speakers.Tuning.done.
-Praise and worship by da "Orang Asli" youth there.
-So pass on to our side.Service till de end.
-After that,some performance by da youths there.
-Finish.Had some snacks.Then off we go.
-To hav dinner.Tat time is around 10pm ready.
-We finish around almost 12 i think.
-But dun think i eat much though coz i'm busy sms with ma crush.
(Oh!! wat happens when you hav confess to your crush but not steady yet but still frens?!)
-Anyways.Off we go on a bumpy,scary and rollercoaster ride home.(i wonder which home i'm goin to tat time)
-So here we are comin down from da hill in a quite poorly lighted area.
-There are rocks averywhere.Rainin.Just how scary is tat.
-All is over not soon enough.Argh din get any sleep at all.
-So it all ends with us gettin back at 4am in da mornin.
The end.

Ps:
Yesterday was a damn busy day.Photosession.Resit for 3.Gettin to college is da hard part.
Today went to Yvonne's College cell group.Fited in quite well.
Finished.Ciau

Nerd Test

2005-02-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

Soo wanna go Back to dreamland..

2005-02-26T05:35:00.001+08:00

But i cant,its 5.30 am in da mornin i've gotta leave before 6 am later.
So where i'm to?
Cameron Highlands.For a church trip.
We're suppose to do some mission work there.So...
I'll be there the whole day and be back at around 1 am.
So i'll be very bumed.
But if i can, i'll try to fill in tonight,i mean tomoro mornin.
How kind of me..heheh...
Ciau....

A bad day of Many Bad days..

2005-02-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

College Pass/Fail list is out today!!
Wish i could say i'm on the pass list but i'm not..
Its ma fault anyways..Wish could do better but i didn't.
haah...Expected at least 2 passes but i din't get that.Big dissapointment..
Really expected this particular subject to pass.I mean i really felt i did really well during the exam!!
Man...
On top that i'm expectin a the Year 1 timetable FROM the Admid. Office.
They gave it to the Ed board Advisor and she(Ed Advisor) pass it to the Editor which lives on the other side of the island..Yesterday,the person in charge of the timetable told me to come today!!All this after 2 weeks of askin for the timetable!!
This really blows me off knowin what happen today!!
Never have i been so hatin ma college in my life!!
Out.

Cloud-Nined

2005-02-21T12:45:00.001+08:00

i finally confess to my crush yesterday.nope,no love word.Yeah i told her i like her.
I started by telin da classic "Wat if a guys asks U" question. Of cause this prompt her 2 ask me if i'm triyin to tell her somethin.Well it ended up i bruptin out my feelins.
i wish i could say she has da same feelins also but tats not da case.
but i'm happy tat its finally out.The response is wonderfully positive so we still frens.Anyways i don't i'm ready 2 start a relationship rite now.
Am i afraid?Unqualified? i don't know.Maybe we'll develope from here..or maybe not..
Only time will tell with God as my guide.
Other updates:
Played badminton yesterday after 2 years of break and 1/2 year of non-excercise.
So rite now my right side of my body is aching bad..auch,everytime i move it hurts.

I'm back!!

2005-02-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

It'll be some time before i really start cuztomizin this blog.
Argh i'm really dunno wat 2 write.
hows this i'll dedicated this blog writin bout my crush.
De other one bout ma daily life will be at http://ghostex.multiply.com/.
So who's ma crush?
I'll leave u guessin for a while..
So till i'm back..Heeh

New but not Startin yet...

2004-08-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hey not bad..i can edit my own HTMl codes...
Like da title sez..i'm not startin yet..just trying out..
BTW i'm havin ma exams nex week so Chill Till I'm back..
K?
PS:I don believe it some ppl already hav ma special nick for this blog..